.once.upon.a.time.in.shanghai.

थे reason

2011-12-26T17:44:00.005+01:00

Notice the weird character on the title. I wonder how I got that. hehe

In the last a week or two, it has been upside-down tonggang-terbalik of my life. Nervousness, depression, outstandingly happy, scared to death, all came at almost the same time. But they were on each seperate events, non related to each other. I wish its something I could write here, but forget it, its too personal.

Dear Mr Asrul (previous owner of my current phone number),
If somehow out of the blue that you got to read this post, please be informed that your former workers and bunch of friends and relatives were looking for you.

Dear Callers looking for Mr Asrul,
Yes, I am your operator in charged. Please do call at any hours. I'll convey the message to him, ok. (mata ke atas, tangan ke dada)

Don't you agree that Demi Lovato sings better than Salena Gomez. However, this song has been in my head for quite sometime :)Love you like a love song

Thoughts jumble up!

2011-02-09T17:19:00.001+01:00

These is what I had in mind in the last few days.
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I have totally abandoned this blog for such a loooong time. Why had I come back? A few reasons I guess
1) I need to nag, I need to whine
2) I love my friends and family so much, that I don’t want to bore them with my whine
3) I need to channel my frustration and anger without upsetting other human being
4) I need a medium to express my thoughts on things
5) I just want to talk to a machine that doesn’t talk back..hehe

I changed the site title from Once Upon a Time in Shanghai to Dari Ekor Mata Intan Tettiyana (bukan nama sebenar). It was some sort of my signature when I was pretty much involved with Kapasitor (well, not anymore). Acronyms for?? Hmmm, go figure. :-)

Of course you shouldn’t say something inappropriate in FB. Even if you badly need to say something inappropriate, you’ll have to put your words nicely, so that it doesn’t sound inappropriate. Am I not correct? Your boss could read it. Your colleagues from work are your friends. So be-itch-ing about your co-workers is prohibited of course! Eh am not saying that I do that a lot. It’s just that, you are at work like what 24/7? Who are the only ones you see and hangout other than your friends at work. There will be people that you are working with, that put you in pressure and make you frustrated. Those, who constantly boil you to 135 degrees. Elaboration?? more to come later.

Ok, since am putting that 24/7 at work, I got this rush of feeling that I don’t come out much and all I do is work. Heck! I hate to admit that. There is in no doubt, I LOVE my job. Ding dong! Call for a night out!

I realized that there is this statistic function in your blogspots, where as you can view where your site was accessed from. (Is that what zugriffquelle means? I can understand but I can’t really explain). To my surprise, my friends are still writing in their blogs as well. Awesome!

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Who the heck is this Hasrul?? Up to today there has been about 2-3 calls/smses, asking for Hasrul aka Jiwang (this fella mesti ada taman dalam hati, kalau tak takkan member2 panggil jiwang..hehe). He must have used this new h/p no. that I'm currently using.

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I was at my deepest state of mind last week. Well, that was probably due to the PMS infection. I was so pissed off to the fact that I missed my ex-boss farewell party and the fact that my friends did not bring back food, and that I was starving to death, because I had to attend an urgent restore as I was holding the oncall phone for the whole week. (wow! that is a whole lot lines to read). I don't usually get upset because of the small-small things. As I said, PMS might have driven to such frustration.

There are quite number of things in my mind now; the data migration and web
application project that I’m leading. I am starting to doubt myself, am I capable of doing all these on top of my base workloads. Talking about the base workloads, where there are projects here and there. Honestly, I feel like am done supporting sites. It is less of a challenge now.

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I kind of noticed that, few of my friends uploaded their old photos when we were in Deutschland in FB. It strikes me that could it possible that we missed Deutschland so much? I did upload few old photos in FB. I missed my friends, missed the day we hang out and do stuff together. I missed the pillow talk with intang, neyn, kia, jan, wawa, sue, kun, fasi, has, aida, auni and zet. I missed going to places. I missed the life I had when I was in Deutschland. I missed the dear mates in Ulm, abg am, abg megat, shazelan, che, astar, batpo, Kelvin, adhi, arip usw. I missed my classmates florian, carlo, martin, steve and dave. I missed the weather. I missed the silence. I missed working in Siemens and MAN Diesel. I missed running to catch the bus and train. I missed doing the groceries shopping. I missed

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Talking about missing Germany, I just had an opportunity to converse in Deutsch today. It was awesome! The guy contacted me yesterday because there’s issue with an oracle server, not purging its data as expected. I never knew that there’s EMIT /DBAM folks in Germany. When I got his email today, I noticed his signature. He is currently located in Hannover. So taking the opportunity at hand, I IM’ed him to do a follow up on the issue. It has been awhile since I had real Deutsch conversation with anyone. It feels great! And oh my God, my Deutsch is getting rusty. It has been only 3 years since I left Germany, yet it has been this bad. I have forgotten a lot!

The first phone number

2011-01-16T17:50:00.008+01:00

Recent event..My phone no. was terminated, coz I did not 'top-up' my prepaid card timely. It is heart breaking. I had the no. since 2001 and it was the first no I had back then. Lots of sweet, dark, unerasable memories, I had with that no.

I remembered buying a new handphone (my first own handphone) when I was studying in UiTM. It was 2001. I was accompanied by a dear friend of mine. We went to Pertama complex. If I am not mistaken, I ended up buying Siemens C25 (the black, bulky one), after several choices thrown out in front of me. Siemens C25 was the smallest, inexpensive phone that I could ever afford to buy, provided that I was a 'scholarship'ed student :)

The sweetest memory with this no. is that, my mom used it when I was in Germany. She maintained the no. I called, sms'ed her daily, weekly by this no.

And of course, sweet and dark memories about the phone is when you talk about your love life. Love was conveyed through this number. Frustration was expressed through this no. Okay, am emotional now!

My friend commented on my facebook's status; that she remembers this number. How awful that I've lost it. The no. has been in my friend's phonebook for ages.

I wish I could have the number back. However, I have no luck in keeping the number. I had requested for the number to be converted to fixed line. The customer line service said that is up to the management decision, whether the no can be registed as fixed line, etc...Maxis has came back saying that te no is not available. I doubt it! Apparently, an appeal is also not going to help. If only I have a friend in Maxis that could help me getting the no. back :(

I've registered for a new number, mainting the last four digits. That's the best that Maxis can offer. I am hoping to build new memories with this new number. Hoping for the best out of it.

Adios 012-2653852!!

After such long time

2011-01-11T17:21:00.002+01:00

Wow! My last entry was in 2008. A lot has happened since then...I rather not talk about what had happened in these past years.

It's 2011! It's 11.1.11 today. While driving home from work today, it occurs to me that I did not have any new resolution for the year 2011. Can't think of any right now though..

(listening to Keane - Somewhere only we now)

Keyboard off for now. Am hoping to write more soon!

broadband in malaysia

2008-08-21T05:01:00.003+02:00

I'm looking for the best provider for internet broadband connection. I was about to sign up with Celcom Broadband. Luckily, I came across such a disturbing fact on the condition of the service. "This service is bound by Celcom’s Fair Usage Policy of 5GB a month".

I was like, "woooaaaa...are they going to reduce my connection speed if I were to exceed the 5GB limit?". And the answer is yes! I did some research and found this somewhere in the net forum(tatau laa kesahihannya)

Here it goes:
Below are the FAQ for so call "FAIR USAGE POLICY":
There are total 4 pages on this FAQ

FAQ – FAIR USAGE POLICY

1. What is Fair Usage Policy?

As part of our ongoing commitment to provide reliable and high-quality broadband services, Celcom Broadband has a Fair Use policy on its Internet services. This enables us to manage the network better and ensure we can continue to deliver the best possible service at all times to all our subscribers.
A Fair Usage Policy is a policy enforced by Celcom to ensure high quality and good overall service performance for all Celcom Broadband subscribers at all times. The policy is enforced by means of network management tools and servers.

2. Why do you impose a Fair Usage Policy?

Fair Usage Policy is needed to clearly define the acceptable level of conduct between Celcom Broadband and its subscribers. This includes determining usage thresholds beyond which subscribers are classified as over-using the network. Currently, the defined acceptable level of usage for Celcom Broadband is 5GByte of data transfer per subscribers per month.
Fair Usage Policy is also needed because a handful of Celcom Broadband users make excessive use of available bandwidth, depriving the majority of subscribers of their deserved bandwidth. Thus, the quality of service for the majority of subscribers is badly affected. Fair Usage Policy overcomes this problem by ensure fair allocation of bandwidth among all Celcom Broadband subscribers to ensure equal and good service quality for every subscribers.

3. Where can I find more information about it?

The Fair Usage Policy definition can be found on www.celcom.com.my under the Celcom Broadband section.

4. How am I bound by this policy?

All Celcom Broadband Customers by signing on the application form and/or the addendum have automatically agreed to the Terms and Conditions Posted on the Celcom Website. As such the Fair Usage Policy that has been available since Sept 2007 on the website is applicable to all Celcom Broadband subscribers.

5. In the policy published on your website, you mention that my bandwidth will be managed, what does it mean?

To manage you bandwidth means Celcom reserve the right to control your allocated speed or more commonly referred to as throttle the speed of individuals should we find them continuously overusing and breaching the allocated data volume.

6. What does data volume mean?

All monthly unlimited broadband subscribers are allocated 5GB of data volume per month. Each activity performed on the Internet, for example, e-mailing, general web browsing, files transferring, chatting, peer-to-peer downloading or online gaming will accumulate your data volume. Celcom proactively monitors the data volume of each subscriber and will manage the bandwidth of the relevant subscribers when the usage exceeds 5GB.

7. What is 5GB?

1GB is 1024 MB (Mega Bytes)
To be exact, 1GB (Giga Byte) is 1024 bytes x 1024 bytes x 1024 bytes = 1,073,741,824 Bytes. Thus 5GB is 5 times of that volume.

8. How much is 5GB?
Roughly 5 gigabyte is about 1200 songs in MP3 format, or 5 two-hour movies, or 10,000 content rich websites like www.yahoo.com

9. How do you impose the Fair Usage Policy?

Celcom has state of the art monitoring tools that monitors individual bandwidth utilizations. Once an individual’s utilization has reached its allocated limit, Celcom will send out an alert to the customer and proceed with the bandwidth management exercise. This is an automatic and accurate process.

10. How does Celcom Send Alerts?

Celcom will send out SMS Notification with the breach of allocated data volume alert.

11. What if I have a Data Only / Stand Alone Broadband Package that doesn’t support incoming SMS, how will Celcom then alert me?

Based on the information supplied by you during your registration, Celcom will send out the SMS notification to the alternative mobile number provided.

Should you feel that this information requires updating, please immediately contact Celcom’s Customer Care Centre at 1-300-111-000 and proceed to update your personal particulars.

12. When you manage my bandwidth or throttle my speed, what speed will you put me on?

Once Celcom’s monitoring system has detected your breach of 5GB, Celcom will send out the SMS and immediately proceed to reduce or throttle your speed.

Based on your current package, if you are on Broadband Advance (3.6Mbps), you will be reduced to 128 kbps and if you are on Broadband Basic ( 384kbps) you will be reduced to 64kbps.

13. How long is the throttle period for?

Your speed will continue at the reduced speed allocation until the end of that particular calendar month, On the first day of each month, customer’s bandwidth allocation counter will be reset to 0 and their speed will be reset back to their original subscribed speed.

14. What should I do to reduce my usage?
Immediately reduce your bandwidth usage (uploads and downloads) for all applications. Both upload and download traffic count towards your personal usage. Normally the main contributor for high data usage is peer-to-peer (P2P) applications. If you have any form of peer to peer (p2p) file-sharing program (eg BitTorrent, DC++, EMule) on your computer, or p2p TV (Joost, 4oD, BBC iPlayer) then your upload traffic (traffic people elsewhere on the Internet get from you) could be extremely high and you might not even realize it.

To reduce your upload usage you can

· fully exit p2p applications when you've finished using them (don't leave them running in the background or the system tray with other people uploading from you if you aren't downloading),

· set a low limit for your maximum upload speed in your p2p program,

· uninstall p2p programs from your computer completely using Add/Remove programs if you do not need them anymore.
Another important contributor for high data volume is virus, spamming or spyware running at the background of your computer, without you realizing it. Ensure that you have installed the latest and updated version of anti-virus, anti-spamming and anti-spyware software.
It is highly recommended that you monitor your own internet usage in order to prevent unauthorized applications in your computer from exhausting your data volume allocation.

15. What can I do to un-throttle?

For now, there is no means for customers to request for un-throttling. All throttling will be enforced from the moment of breach of 5GB until the last day of the month. Un-throttling will only be done on the first day of every month. However, Celcom will have the option of purchasing more data volumes to prevent throttling in the near future.

16.What applications make my usage high?

It is most likely to affect you if you use:
· peer to peer (p2p) file-sharing software (eg BitTorrent, eMule, p2p TV)
· peer to peer TV, such as Joost, Sky Anytime, BBC iPlayer, or 4oD
· Video on demand and video streaming services such as TV & films from iTunes Store.
· Youtube videos
· Virus, spamming and spywares.

source: http://forum.mypdacafe.com/viewtopic.php?t=19013&postdays=0&postorder=asc&start=75&sid=0666510f27fabc1b0e34455f07085518

Whats the point of having a broadband connection if you were to only use it for reading emails, internet surfing, etc. 5 2-hours movies to dowload every month? Nay...I dont think so!! I've missed a lot of "desperate housewives", "how i met your mother", "the big bang theory", and bunch of movies from feb to july 2008..5Gb per month, is just not enough!

new life

2008-07-15T12:21:00.002+02:00

its been awhile since my last entry..heck, actually its been uuhhhh-whileeeee since my laaaaast entry.

New updates:
-I am not a student anymore.
-balik malaysia dah almost 2 months.
-missing germany n friends very much.
-Employed by sebuah kilang kicap di kl. (mati aku kena bunuh kalau my boss read my blog).
-living a new life, as expected; it sucks.
-has to endure the malaysia's traffic jam and high priced fuel. *sigh*

but something hasn't change about me. Am still waiting for the moment I could bump into Muhaizad Ahmad Mustapha. psstttt muni-> bila hang nak kasi aku no tepon dia ni?

sign off for now..until next zillion-while entry...

a sentence

2008-04-22T11:32:00.002+02:00

one sentence: I'm broke!!

lek lu sap kok lu pon cannot solve the problem..apolaa yg encik2 di JPA ni buat...*COL*

even coffee cannot solve the problem

2008-02-25T11:52:00.002+01:00

omigod!! today is my worst lalok-day ever. yawning every 3 mins. otak tepu. aahhh need to recharge myself!!

summarise your life in one word

2008-02-20T15:33:00.008+01:00

Writing my thoughts while cracking my brain 4 ideas to continue my thesis

Summarise your current life in one word: tunggang-langgang-with-exclamation-mark (eh..can it be considered as one word?)

I hit "jackpot"! By right, it means "to become notably and unexpectedly successful". but hell NO. in my case it means "to become notably and unexpectedly stepped-on-dog's-bodily-waste-discharged-through-the-anus-successful". I was looking at those beautiful wedding gowns *sigh* while dreaming of wearing them, that I accidentally stepped on the shite. SHITE wed-gowns.I threw away my 25€ shoes.

I wrote insanely-three-pages long CV. Who would ever want to read that?Rewrite!

I went to reutlingen last wiken. Yeay, makan best!! thnx muloq n phyzy. Muloq should open his own restaurant! Had fun playing poker with the Verlierer..heheh to yg terasa-jgn marah. (if you happen to read my blog lah).Tanak balik ke dunia reality on “Sunday morning”, but had to. Angau dgn abg bukan rambut merah sat, but had been given a shocking-menyakitkan-hati-phone-conversation-slap from a friend, it brought me back to reality. Thank you! (haven't talk to the friend yet..am still pissed off but feeling grateful..yeah, u were right! Ubatnya hanyalah penampar hehe)

I am officially considered as illegal-immigrant by Bürgeramt Augsburg.

I bought new boots few weeks earlier and I regret it!

Msg received from my sis-in-law “akum, kabar? keje ke? Esok arijadi abah. Dia kata spai ke nyawa abah esok. Mcm2 abah tulis dlm diarinya”. To my friends, please visit me if I happen to be “hospitalized for mental evaluation” eh.(hehehe..quoted from http://dict.leo.org/forum/)

Worst PMS ever. Bukan premenstrual-syndrome tapi premengong-syndrome.But if the real PMS definition add up with sha's PMS definition, it gives?

My colleague baca my blog..jeng jeng!!(have to write clean stuff shj from now on)

Abah kata baru lps letak batu nisan and bata tepi kubur.saya nak pi letak rumput carpet

I'm afraid to go home. I'm afraid to face what-ever-things I have to face there. I'm jez afraid...

I better stop writing or else; I would end up writing about politics plak. Felt the obligation utk daftar mengundi, tapi....

saya rindu mama saya

blogging: once in a zillion days

2007-12-21T13:29:00.000+01:00

The thing about babies; they are cute, huggable, pudgy and all those words that describe cuteness. Is it the women's nature to love babies? Perhaps you might meet women who dont like babies, but if you ask them (i mean really-really ask them), they also want to have a baby sometime.

My friend (Hasmiza) gave birth to a handsome baby adam recently, so I went to visit her last weekend. Congratulation to ABAH SYUX n IBU HAS. As expected, the girls who went with me adore baby adam very much. Everybody took turn to hold him. Tak senang baby tu nak tido. Everyone was like "alalala..comelnyer dia tido", "alalala..dia senyum", “alalala..dia menguap”, “alalala…dia tu dia ni” (and of course conversing all of these, using that typical tone when u see cute babies, if u know what i mean).

At that moment, I wish I have my own baby adam (which I'll name him hafiz or rafique or haziq or something else). So, (like a light bulb appeared out of nowhere that suddenly menyala) I should adopt!! Yes, seeing that beautiful thing ciptaan Allah makes you wanna do things, that is totally against the things that what you wanna do. For years, I've always said to myself, even if I were to get married early (say, at the age of 17) pon, I will not have kids until I have stable income (more precisely: every month i manage to put aside money for my kids saving account; bukan setakat secure job with income that is just enough to pay my bills, debts and living cost). Yeah, it bumps me a lot; at the age of 25, I'm still a student (though JPA pays us a lot).

And so, I came back from my crazy-thought-of-having-myself-an-adopted-baby. To own a baby is memang seronok pada zahirnya, but the responsibility you’ll hold is something else. Unless you are ready physically, emotionally and financially, then you may have as many of those cutey-pudgy-creature as you want. So, the next question will be; when will you be ready?; how do you know that you are ready?

Has’s mother was there. Honestly…I did feel sad. I heard the girls talked about having mom during the labor and how it would feel if their mother’s not there and etc. It made me realise that in such an important episode of my life; mama is not going to be there. Or will mama always be there, only I couldn’t hear/feel her? I hope so :-) Will someone else's mom care for me as much as mama?

Ya Allah, Sejahterakan mama di alam nya

sutera dan rayon

2007-11-16T22:24:00.000+01:00

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This song happened to be my favourite song when I was 12. Still remember the time when abang was so mad at me because I played the song over and over again using his HIFI(time tu kengkunun hifi ialah mende sgt gempak n dia sayang dat thing lebih dr his adik...n the tape was his actually..dun know where he got it)

Tetiba today tergerak hati nak cari lagu ni balik. And how mengejutkan, someone had uploaded it kat esnips. So this song happen(s) to be one of my fav -still-

Lirik:
Jika kau seteru
Pena ini pedang untukmu
Puisiku ini
Hanya racun dalam madu

Dan suaraku
Akan pasti menjadi guruh
Yang menyambar
Dan pastikan membakar
Rayon cintamu

Jika kau seteru
Laguku menjadi peluru
Pastikan meledak
Menembusi telinga itu

Layu bunga
Kerana kehilangan madu
Layu cinta
Tak dapat memenuhi hasrat rindu

Andainya engkau kekasihku
Penaku menjadi seruling
Menghembus irama rindu
Tanda kasih tak berpaling

Rayon palsu
Pasti akan lusuh...
...aahhh

Rayon
Berganti sutera sejati
...aahhh

1 Syawal

2007-10-12T14:38:00.000+02:00

Mama, hari ini 1 Syawal. Tahun ni germany raya awal dari malaysia. Macam tahun-tahun lepas, orang call mama beritahu kami raya awal dari Malaysia. By the time, mama dah ada kat kampung. Sibuk di dapur dengan nenek dan cik limah. Pada pagi raya di Malaysia, orang sanggup sengkang mata, tidur lambat sebab nak call mama. Orang tanya mama masak apa, tapi mama selalu jawab "mama masak ayam masak lemak cili api jek..tak sedaplah!!". Kita gelak sama-sama. Orang tau semua yang mama masak mesti sedap. Bila suara mama dah tukar jadi sayu, orang selalu kata "mama, jangan nangis laa..orang takde, anak-anak mama yang lain kan ada". Mama cuma jawab "tak sama". Orang cuba buat lawak-lawak bodoh yang agaklah tidak lawaknya, mama gelak dalam tangis.
Mama, hari ini 1 Syawal. Tak macam tahun-tahun lepas. Tahun ni orang tak call rumah lagi. Orang tak call abah lagi. Orang boleh rasa abah tunggu orang call abah this few days. Tapi orang tak boleh call abah. Orang tak nak abah dengar orang nangis. Orang tak nak abah susah hati.
Mama, hari ini 1 Syawal. 5 tahun lepas rupanya tahun akhir orang ngan mama beraya sama-sama. Time tu orang ingat lagi, orang merajuk dengan dengan semua orang sebab diorang tak balik raya di kampung dengan kita. Orang sedih sangat time tu, sebab fikir mana laa tau kalau lepas ni orang pergi tak balik-balik dah dan tak dapat nak beraya sama-sama lagi. Orang dah tak ingat dah bila last raya, yang ada kita semua, mama, abah, kakak, abang...tapi rupa-rupanya mama yang pergi tak balik-balik dah
Mama, hari ini 1 Syawal. 1 tahun lepas mama peluk orang. 2 bulan lepas orang peluk mama. Lepas ni?? kalau mimpi dapat peluk mama pon jadilah.
Mama, hari ini 1 Syawal. Mama, orang nak tulis lagi. Tapi orang tak mampu nak tahan air mata. Orang ingat senyum mama. Orang ingat lagi wajah senyum mama ketika baru sampai dari hospital. Mama cantik sangat masa tu.
Mama, hari ini 1 Syawal. Mama, orang rindu mama

Al-fatihah untuk mama, Aisah binti Tufail Mohamed

office: staying by choice

2007-07-26T17:52:00.000+02:00

what am i doing here? I don't have anything to do..err, actually I do have things to do, but don't have the heart to do anything. I suppose i could go home right now, but why am I staying here?

Current news. My mum was discharged from kkb-bloody-hospital last night at 1am and admitted to HUKM. My sis smsed me at 3am pagi td, and I wasnt aware of it until this morning at 6. I don't really know what to think or feel. I was so shocked when my dad said that mama had to be sent to hukm by an ambulance coz the nadi was low and she had to wear that oxygen thingy. In fact rite now, she has to wear it. Should I be flying home by now? *sigh*

Worried about my sister as well. She'll be staying in hukm to look after my mum, coz the husband is not allowed to stay at night. My sis pon tak sihat betul. After kuar ICU hari tu, her fever keeps coming and going. Tak betul2 sihat lagi.

Abah hasnt slept well for the past 10 days. Even I doubt it that he could sleep. Harap kaki abah tak bengkak and dia sihat-sihat je.

*sigh* why now...

Thanks frens for your support. Doakanlaa untuk mak aku yer.

feeling like writing

2007-07-20T17:39:00.000+02:00

friday;1739
still in the office. Working with anything in particular? naaa..simply buang masa..nak kaver balik masa kerja yg telah dimisskan secara sengaja.

I felt really awful screaming at my sis this morning. Bukan salah dia pon. Salah the bloody-stupid-nurse. And I, because tatau nak channelkan ke mana my anger and disappointment telah teryelled at my sis. Mad because I'm here, and can't do anything to help my mum.

My mum still in hospital. She sounded Oklaa, when I checked on her tghari tadi.
For the first time, she said; if only I dont have to extend my studies, then I'll be already beside her this august, taking care of her. *sigh* She has always been supportive before. She always said she will wait for me no matter what.

Ma, I'm sorry. I really am sorry. I'll try my best to speed things up and return to you as soon as possible. Just hold on and wait for me, alrite!

Am worried so much.

decision

2007-07-17T10:15:00.000+02:00

My mum was admitted to the hospital yesterday. Its the first time ever, since I'm in Germany. The feeling sucks. I cried pathetically yesterday(the tram passenger had noticed me crying, ouh n my work colleague as well). Intan had once said to me the other day. "Mak bapak kita dah tua sekarang. So reaction diorang to ubat-ubatan dah kurang. So if diorang sakit, prepare yourself". My sister pon tak cukup sihat to take care of my mum.

Before this, I haven't quite decided of what I want to do after this. Stay here or balik mesia. Dah lama sangat I'm away from my mum. Dari tingkatan 1, sekolah at boarding school. And then 5 years in Germany. Its time for me to take care of my family. So it is decided... I'm going home. Maybe kalau ada rezeki, someday I'll be back in Germany....

just

2007-06-21T14:28:00.001+02:00

disappointed!

just something..

2007-06-04T11:44:00.001+02:00

Who do you turn to when the only person in the world that can stop you from crying, is exactly the one making you cry?

kroh

2007-04-04T15:47:00.000+02:00

3 hours more to go..its raining outside..friday is a public holiday..I'm soooo not in the mood of doing any of my work rite now..tak sabar nak cuti..and am so lapar..had only salad for lunch tadi..coz they served only babi today..hakhakhak..mind me..am not cursing..they did serve babi..di kala hujan-hujan begini, am craving for food!!..*sigh*

R.T.F.M.

2007-04-02T16:30:00.000+02:00

Have heard of R.T.F.M?! Yeah...Read the f***ing manual!! but for me, it is "Read the f***ing tutorial". I'm not saying this because I dont like my job. In fact, I really do LOVE my job. Programming...crazy huh??

Currently starting a new task, where I have to learn to use FLEX-lexical analyzer generator. The thing I've never learnt before. Those who is super power in compiler, must've known it. Wont be talking about my job anymore.

New Updates: 1) Been to Proton interview last Friday. Got the job I guess. They said...err he said (the HR person), I'll be getting the offer letter in June or July this year. I have plenty of time to decide, whether to go for it or not. 2) Dah sebulan keje rupanya!! 3) officially mengalami trauma selepas kehilangan basikal, where as setiap kali ada basikal di sekitar 1m berhampiran ngan aku, akan aku teliti samada adakah ianya basikal aku yg telah dicuri atau tidak.

One hour lagi nak balik..dah takde mood nak wat apa-apa..but I have to wait until 6pm, utk cover balik masa yg aku guna utk ke kelas MATLAB setiap hari selasa di Ulm. Till next updates then!!

Love Song - 311

2007-03-28T17:37:00.000+02:00

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you

The song ditujukan kepada manusia-manusia yang sedang berchenta tahap dewa dikala ini. To has, saya pinjam lagu awak ngan syuk laaa yerr..coz lagu ni best!!

Pech gehabt

2007-03-25T22:04:00.000+02:00

If you refer http://dict.leo.org, you would know what I mean by Pech gehabt..

I jez got back from London. Bukan bersuka-ria yerr kawan-kawan, but was there becoz of my passport. I supposed to be back on saturday, but as i was saying Pech gehabt, I ended up sampai rumah on sunday..

It all started on the saturday morning. After a nice 2 glases of teh tarik and sepinggan nasi lemak and chitchats with a small girl named samihah and her parents, we were off to victoria bus station. We (me, Elai, Phyzy n his monkey named, Abu) But unfortunately, we missed the bus we supposed to get in. It followed with another series of bloodiness. There has been an accident on M1 n the couch we got in had to travel across the country to get to London stansted. That added up another 20 mins of the journey time. We arrived exactly at 1440, and nothing can be done

Next, we decided to catch the flight to frankfurt-hahn at 1640. (I can imagine how sejuk it would be to stay overnight in Stansted-airport..am not going to do the same again). So we arrived at hahn at about 1930(I guess), headed to Mannheim to catch train to reutlingen and augsburg. The series of Pech continued. We arrived at almost 11pm in Mannheim HBF(train station), only to find out that theres no more train departing for augsburg and reutlingen. To kill "some" time (OR should I say "hell some time") we lepaked at burger King until 3am and kebap house until 6am.

We departed from Mannheim at 711 and I managed to arrive safely at 10am in Augsburg HBF. It was a bloody cold day. Super sejuk gile. Well my series of Pech didnt end yet. I arrived 20 mins later at home only to find out that my bike was STOLEN!! That susah-payah-nak-angkut-to-augsburg-and-almost-injured-me bicycle is gone!!

So skrang, I have to walk again from home to the trem-stop. Yes, I know HE's punishing me, for the thing I do rite now. Oh God, Forgive me!!

ayam, chicken, haenchen

2007-03-06T15:17:00.000+01:00

Its my 5th day at work now. And its 1519 rite now. and I am ayamly, super tired.

Thing about rumah dah settle. I'm no longer one homeless lad. Staying rite now wif my kazaks friends sister. (she is not psycho after all!!..heheheh). The house is a bit too far from workplace. Have to get up at 6 each morning n will arrive at 730. (act try to arrive 7..tp x boleh..i dun think i can wake up earlier than 6)

Augsburg is one expensive city walaupon tak sebesar münchen! the semester ticket cost me 140,50€ (dem!!). To rent a single appartment is na klar, expensive as well. The preis of 2 rooms appartment is likely the same as the 1 room appartment.

Life at work: 5th day---> ngantuk, boss takde, main-main, there is one task to be siapkan n i suppose dah siapkan pon one hour ago..tapi disbbkan besok my boss still takkan ada kat ofis, n am too malas to ask for new task from diff. boss, so am doing my job pada kadar bermalas-malasan

life at home: wake up at 6, balik at 6 as well, tido at 9..(is that what one calls life??)

Will write again next time..till then!!

zimmer hunting

2007-02-06T19:36:00.000+01:00

exams week tak habis lagi. But mine...dah habis!!! Unfortunately, though dah habis exam I still cant layan any muvis rite now. Firstly, have to finish up my Web-engine kerja sekolah. Second, have to do room hunting. Third, have to kemas rumah. Fourth, have to pack utk pindah (though rumah kat augsburg tak dpt lg). Finally, nak gi jln trier/luxembourg.

Actually I dont feel like writing so much. Tapi mcm blog ni hampir basi, better write someting...Ouh yup, while kemasing my house last nite, I found that one of my hadiah pecah. I dont know what to do with it. (a)buang (b)simpan. I asked my friends, what should I do. And here what they say.

Friend 1 said: Buang the pecah thing, and buy a new one thats exactly the same like it.
Friend 2 said: Buang..(tak baik simpan barang yg pecah)..then tell the person who gave the present to you, yang hadiah telah terpaksa dibuang.
I say: I dont know!
so what say you?

As I said, I dont feel like writing, I dont know what to write, so einfach write (ouh well, blogging is somehow pointless kan!! You can blab what ever you want.) Ouh...I think Comp center ni dah nak tutup..8pm kat sekolah..what a nerd i yaaeeeemmmm kan..hehehe..ok bye

global warming

2007-01-24T10:58:00.000+01:00

Its snowing heavily today. Last week tak snow langsung, instead angin berkelajuan 200km/h (exagerating!!...just some part in north angin selaju itu) yang boleh menyebabkan anda juga terbang bersama sampah dan tong sampah. And last night turun snow and sampai sekarang tak berenti2 lagi. Walking to school is somewhat kelakar. I feel like a dwarf berkaki katik trying to redah the piling snow.

This week is quite a scheiss week for me. Why? a) exams coming, my level of concentration and motivation is down to 7 percent. (What a stupid thing to do, habiskan your time playing minesweeper) b) i lost my handphone yesterday. (this will cause jiwa kacau laa..demit) c) its snowing, running and bloody nose, Erkältung.

Anymore worse thing yet to come? I hope...errr...I pray to God, enough laa dulu kot..next time plak kay..Orait, enough for this-time-around-update. I need to go reading the Distributed System by Sir Tanenbaum *sigh*

wish me luck for exam!!

currently banging my head kat laptop buruk jenama twinhead

2007-01-12T14:45:00.000+01:00

guess where am I now..on the hening friday evening, I should've been lying on my bed, relaxing every bone and conserving every lemak that I have..instead I'm here kat lab computer sekolah yang kosong tiada bermanusia ini, trying to finish up my work, yang mana supposingly dah siap dah pon.

I wrote about my JSP Project, didnt I? Am glad, I have finished it like last monday (this Ausdruck was before Wednesday laa..) So on that dummy wed, I went to see Herr Traub telling about the progress of my project dgn happy nyaaa...but like S.N.A.P he took away the happiness by telling me.. ouh, awak dun have to use database pon in your project. So I was like, haaa?? what the fuk!! abih tu guna xml??..and it seemed dat my guess was right..and here what i found

"you may ask, "you're using XML to store data? Why not use a database?" Good question. The answer is that for many purposes, a database is overkill. To use a database, you have to install and support a separate server process, which often also requires installing and supporting a database administrator. You must learn SQL, and write SQL queries that convert data from a relational to an object structure and back again. If you store your data as XML files, you lose the overhead of an extra server........."

I really dun have times to do another programm or dalam kurungan do the whole thing again!! C.O.L......

cisss with cheese

2007-01-06T03:07:00.000+01:00

cheese cake anyone??

I baked cheese cake today. Everything went purrrfect until...

I was walking to the kitchen, sambil bernyanyi kecil di dalam hati, dengan perasan gembiranya, thinking that "yeay! leh makan cheese cake sok! lepas letak topping ni leh masuk dalam fridge.dah lama tak buat cheese cake", and in my left hand ada a bottle of strawberry jem yang masih belum dibuka..and suddenly gedammmt, i dropped the bottle. So ditengah kegelapan malam ni, aku rasa sgt tensi sebab a)my cheese cake is going to be plain, takde topping b)sebotol jem pecah c)sok kedai tutup, and tak boleh nak beli jem d)task JSP aku masih tak siap lagi e)I cant put my mind off that particular "particular"

pengajaran: anak dara tak baik nyanyi kat dapur atau on the way nak gi dapur

thats that for tonight yang amat membosankan dan menensikan ini. Till next era(internet kat rumah still mengong!!)

cuti-cuti germany

2006-12-25T01:42:00.000+01:00

Have been sakit hati a lot lately. Why? Because of this "f**king, freaking" internet at home. been cursing berbakul-bakul time nak open email, tu satu hal laa. I need to the online JSP tutorial ok!! *sigh* Exams coming in a month. I have 3 written exams, 2 oral exams and 1 project (while biting my nails...the JSP project shud be submitted by the end of jan, and i hvnt started yet).

Have jez received phone call from fujitsu-siemen last friday. (I guess the interview went well..hehehe) They accepted me! Yeah!! I've been extremely happy that day that I talked a lot, I jumped a lot and etc. Jakun, batak, gembira dsb. Sesapa yang rasa susah nak dpt tmpt practical kat sini might have the same feeling kot. Ke I'm jez the one yang super ntahapahapa..well who cares!! I dont think to cari for another practical place. Malas dah kot.

I think dats it for tonite kot. Di kala malam yg sudah agak "tidak muda" ini, mata pon dah tak larat nak bukak, idea pon dah tarak. Ouh, anyway..I've just watched .C.I.N.T.A. ...Only one word to describe it .M.E.A.N.I.N.G.F.U.L. ..Hope to see another Malay film that has the same quality as this one!

Good Nite!!

I would like to have a 'd'amburger..

2006-12-11T15:41:00.000+01:00

I've finished reading "Chicken Soup for the Soul" sent by wawa (my bezday present..u ni sweet laaa wawa..hehehe). My favourite card is "The Rules for Being Human"

You will receive a body
You will learn lesson
There are no mistakes, only lesson
A lesson is repeated until learned
Learning lessons does not end
"There" is no better than "here"
Others are merely mirrors of you
What you make of your life is up to you
The answers to life's question lie inside you
You will forget all this

Cherie Carter-Scott

People make mistakes (or as you can use the term "lessons") everyday in life. So don't be ashamed to make any mistake in your life, as by doing mistakes you'll learn. I realize that you should not be regretting of the mistakes you did, instead you should learn to accept and try not to do the same mistake again

And....world peace!!

zirafah

2006-12-09T18:26:00.000+01:00

I was digging into my email yesterday nite that i found this..

kewl huh!!..The expression: "I'm watching you!! Be careful!!" berkata-kata sambil mengunyah kuaci yg dibeli dr kedai Lim.. AND I also found 50 Steps to a Happy Marriage. So sesaja nak share this. Happy reading.

Start each day with a kiss.
Wear your wedding ring at all times.
Date once a week.
Accept differences.
Be polite.
Be gentle.
Give gifts.
Smile often.
Touch.
Talk about dreams.
Select a song that can be "our Song".
Give back rubs.
Laugh together.
Send a card for no reason.
Do what the other person wants before he or she asks.
Listen.
Encourage.
Do it his or her way.
Know his or her needs.
Fix the other person's breakfast.
Compliment twice a day.
Call during the day.
Slow down.
Cuddle.
Ask for each other's opinion.
Show respect.
Welcome the other person home.
Look your best.
Wink at each other.
Celebrate birthdays in a big way.
Apologize.
Forgive.
Set up a romantic getaway.
Ask, "What can I do to make you happier?".
Be positive.
Be kind.
Be vulnerable.
Respond quickly to the other person's request.
Talk about your love.
Treat each other's friends and relatives with courtesy.
Send flowers every Valentine's Day and anniversary.
Admit when wrong.
Be sensitive to each other's sexual desires.
Pray for each other daily.
Watch sunsets together.
Say "I love you" frequently.
End the day with a hug.
Seek outside help when needed.

kata ada 50 tapi ni 48 jek!! i am too malas to cari the another 2 yang tertinggal.

Kopfschmerzen

2006-12-06T11:08:00.000+01:00

This is the 3rd day I'm having this headache. Scheiss! I tried not to take pills, but I had to. Pain kat neck still ada lagi. I don't know how to baikkan dia. Nida kata tepuk ngan bantal. Erk..wuts the significant??..ada science explaination tak behind it? hehehe. I have had enough sleep. In fact I slept a lot! I tried to tuam myself with warm water, and tak jugak baik. So how?

I'm addicted to HEROES!! Can't wait to watch the next episode. Like the Peter Patrelli (Milo Ventimiglia) because he can become anyone he likes. The Nachteil part is of course he doesn't have his own power..but wth! He's cute..in latter episode he's got this "premonition" that he's going to explode..plisss jangan!!

time planner

2006-12-04T12:11:00.000+01:00

Just had a busy wiken, friends came over and me totally kaputt. Woke up at 11 today with sprained neck. Eh macam teruk je bunyinya, tak laaa over sangat kot. Maybe "salah bantal" caused by "terlalu asyik tido di atas sarung bantal baru pemberian jan auni pinky". Thnx neyn, wawe and fasi for coming dari jauh. And tenkiu batpo for the cocktail treat! Went to Wihnachtsmarkt with has and we bought each other a rantai-funky, which I have no idea, when to wear it. And I got myself (as my own birthday present) a house :-D

Last night jan, auni and cik sha watched "Notebook". This was the second time i watched it. The last time, it took me 3-4 days to finish watching the movie. Atas pengaruh rakan-rakan malam tadi, i managed to tengok it balik semula. What i can say here. Yeah, its worth watching. Sweet. But is there such love in this world? The part that I like the most is when the old guy cakap to his children about not coming home with them.. "Look guys, theres my sweetheart in there..I'm not leaving her..This is my home now..Your mother is my home.." *sigh* I pray to God, that I can finally meet the right person :-D

So thats it..Its time to go to town and perhaps to Donau to feed the itik-itik with cik jan..off me go now!!daaaaa

birthday wish again

2006-11-29T14:24:00.000+01:00

it's 29th..it's my DAY, isn't it?? 24 years of Leben. What have I done? What have I contributed? What have I achieved? What have I experienced? What have I learned? What have I....

I enjoyed my 24 years of Leben very much. I don't think I want to mend anything that I've done. (huhu..i hope and think so..) I am sorry if I offended anybody before. I am thankful to have a supportive family and such nice friends that I have rite now. I wish I have a good live ahead of me. I wish I can manage time more wisely(masih dalam Spannung selepas pergi Seminar Zeitmanagement..hehehe).

"Ouh, I'm getting old and getting 'kerepot'er..noooooo!!" That worries me much. Yeah, I know..It's not relevant at all. The idea came out suddenly, as I was looking at the pictures of zaman muda-muda dahulu. "innocentnya muka..muka bersih jek xdek jerawat xdek pigment xdek scar" --> This folgt to meeting a Beautician laa makanya!!

An email from my friend ~Selamat Hari Jadi....U r born in the zooo....drinking the milk of a lembu...Happy Birthday to youuuu!!!~ -->atas permintaan akan kubayangkan rupamu menyanyi dgn suara serak2 basah and dancing mcm lembu dlm iklan "i like to moo, moo..i like to moo, moo.."

I'm not waiting or I wish I'm not waiting..I shouldn't wait or I wish I shouldn't wait..I shouldn't have waited or I wish I shouldn't have waited..Therefore I shall not wait for you to wish me on my birthday..

birthday wish

2006-11-24T00:27:00.000+01:00

24th November..birthday of my beloved neph Muhammad Ridzwan. Happy 16th Bezday, Iwan! Miss him very much (miss your craziness..buweekkk)

Being the first grandson in our family must have been very lucky of him..(dont cha, iwan??). Semua orang pon sayang dia over. He's never get scolded badly, i guess..hehehe..I remember, there was this time that my sister got mad over something and she wanted to lari dari rumah with my neph and I was like crying bagai orang gila coz tanak pisah dari my neph. (masa tu time dia cute laa..rite now, i couldn't wait to get rid of him..hahhaha)

A lot of things yang I do remember about him. Ada sekali tu, he went to the hospital accompanied by my mom. Dia ni putih macam anak cina (plus mata yang amat sepet), so ramai laa nurse-nurse yang suka dia (puhhliiizzzz!!). So ada one nurse came over asking, "adik, dah besar nanti nak jadi apa?". To our disbelief, dia jawab "tok kadi". Well, i dont think any "tok kadi to be" is playing computer games as much as you dear!

This song "All Good Think" by Nelly Furtado caught my interest.

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end

All good things come to end, therefore it is best for us to cheerish the good things before they come to an end. Am I right?

In love..

2006-11-19T20:33:00.000+01:00

The title sounds controversial kan..kan..kan??(controversial..is there such word??) I watched "parental control" last ntah bila night. The girl said to this guy who dated that day, "I think you are in love..that is with yourself!".

Yes, i'm in love with myself..hikhikhik...sound stupid laa plak..but i really do. My mum selalu cakap sayang diri sendiri baru sayang orang lain. She's right. Tapi manusia tend to lupa that bila jumpa someone yang kita rasa kita suka kan?

Actually thats not the point of what i'm going to say here. I was listening to this song last night, and secara tetiba rasa nak kasi lagu ni kat someone. So dear friends, lagu ni ditujukan kat korang sume. I always think of you. To intang, cepat-cepat sehat kay!

Late at night when all the world is sleeping.
I stay up and think of you.
And I wish on a star, that somewhere you are.
Thinking of me too.

Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight.
Till tomorrow, I'll be holding you tight.
And there's nowhere in the world, I'd rather be.
Than here in my room, dreaming about you and me.

Wonder if you ever see me, and I.
Wonder if you know I'm there. (am I there, am I?)
If you looked in my eyes would you see what's inside?
Would you even care?
I just wanna hold you close but so far.
All I have are dreams of you.
So I wait for the day. (wait for the day)
To take the courage to say how much, I love you.
Yes I do.

I'll be dreaming of you tonight.
Till tomorrow, I'll be holding you tight.
And there's nowhere in the world, I'd rather be.
Than here in my room dreaming about, you and me.

(Spanish): (Translation):
Corazon. Sweetheart.
No puedo dejar de pensar en ti. I can't stop thinking of you.
Como te necesito. How I need you.
Mi amor, como t'extrano. My love, how I miss you.

~*Chorus*~ 3

Late at night when all the world is sleeping.
I stay up and think of you.
And I still can't believe.
That you came up to me, and said "I love you.";
"I love you too."

Now I'm dreaming with you, tonight.
Till tomorrow (till tomorrow).
And for all of my life.
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be.
than here in my room.
Dreaming with you endlessly.

optische Nachrichtentechnik

2006-11-16T13:10:00.000+01:00

Have been so very angry with the Internet-verwaltung kat hostel. Its been awhile takde internet connection kat rumah (come to think about it again..bukan "a" while, sondern..sangat lah "a lama" while..about 3 to 4 weeks kot) *sigh* me..takde internet pon nak nag..hehehe

Susah takde internet ni. First of all, u've got to open ur bulky dictionary to find the words u wanted to know (hassle kan??..hehehe ngengada), rather opening leo dictionary, which is ganz einfach and practical. Second, imagine this..all of the sudden u were wondering what are the seven wonders of the world..u came out with only the 6 of them and missed one..would it be stressful that u can't figure out that the "one" if u can't search it in internet..

Third, imagine this again..u were doing your new template for your blog, and you needed some code from internet..would that be mengecewakan, that u can't finish your template, only due to "i dont have internet connection at home"? Fourth,some friends told u.."eh, bukak frenster..ada picture baru of bla bla bla.."..arrgghhh scheiss! takde internet!..hehehe..

Fifth, kena pegi fh utk check email, transfer duit dan sebagainya. Sixth, consider one event "eh, auni ajak gi sigmaringen laa..she masak nasi dagang..nak naik train kol bape eh?"..so takde internet, takde zugverbindung utk dilihat. Seventh, u will be "behind one episode" sebab takleh nak download your peberet tv-series desperate housewives. (I did this quiz. I took it 3 times..know what i got 4 results? I am bree, susan and gabi of desperate housewives..silly huh!)

Enough merepek. Last weekend we had bowling (tournament among malaysian). (I didnt win anything..wut else is new..never good at bowl..baling buah kelapa kat kampung ke beruk pon selalu tak kena..ni kan plak nak baling pin tu..) jan, intang, nena and auni won. And Auni was the best player. Me ain't got any picture. But topek and elai did (pinjam link kay!) taufiqshariff's and alwi's But I did enjoy myself, jumpa kawan-kawan! *smiling*

note to auni: wuts wif the tongue? hahaha..

Ok..got to go to Optischenachrichtentechnik kelas with miss soon to be mrs. kia!

early November

2006-11-07T23:57:00.000+01:00

1 Nov 2006 - w.e.d.n.e.s.d.a.y
As planned, the five of us (yang lain super malas..heheh) gi main bola sepak di kala cuaca dingin bersuhu 2 darjah celcius. Walau sejuk, we had fun sebab dah lama tak bersukan :-D

3 Nov 2006 - f.r.i.d.a.y
On our(Me, auni and jann) way to nena's in Lindau. First impression: Lindau tempat orang-orang tua yang kaya.

4 Nov 2006 - s.a.t.u.r.d.a.y
We had sushi party.
We went jalan-jalan in Bregenz.
We naik amendebahnntah.
We were fascinated with the view of "alaps" from Bregenz.
We found kedai asia in Bregenz.
We lepak-lepak.
We had so much sembang-sembang (wide range of topics..what are the 7 wonders of the world?..pliss anyone tell me!)
We berjimba.
We ate a lot.
We drank a lot.
We had so so so so so much COFFEE!
We went to the toilet a lot, sebabb banyak sangat minum kopi..thnx to auni..hehehe(sungguh tak penting!)

5 Nov 2006 - s.u.n.d.a.y
Its time to go back. Sedih! Instead of going back before 3pm, we ended up balik at 5pm.

Thanx nena!!

lina's housewarming

2006-10-31T23:35:00.000+01:00

Thanks to lina for the treat. I think your house is warmer now..heheheh..Yes, we the ulmers gathered today at lina's new home. The house is cosy and lovely. I like it. It is located in some sort of a wealthy neighborhood, the 'hausmiete' is quite reasonable though. The scenery is also nice. So worth the money!

Tomorrow is a holiday! yeay!! TRICK OR TREAT!! It's Halloween! Only Germany celebrates halloween and kasi one day off (hmmm..i wonder wuts on tv tonite..mesti ada cite hantu)

Tomorrow's activity will be bola sepak. Some of Weingarteners are coming over. Can't wait until tomorrow. Dah lama tak main bola sepak plus sepak kaki orang! Hope tomorrow tak hujan!!

*hausmiete = rent

hari malas sedunia

2006-10-30T20:54:00.000+01:00

The title says it all. Well, actually hari-hari pon rasanya mcm hari malas sedunia. Thank God (n jpa) duit scholar finally masuk. Kalau tak sah-sah negative konto aku. Though hari ni kelas sampai kol 930 jek n can alwiz balik awal to study, I was busying myself jalan-jalan kat stadt. Although it took me only few minutes to buy contact lense solution, i stayed there for almost 1/2 an hour instead. Trying those specs were fun. Am thinking(sinking->germans style) of buying one and sending it to m'sia. Tapi cam rasa rugi duit plak. But then again, the spec i wear rite now aged almost 7 years. Dont I deserve a new spec? *sigh*.

"I just want for you to know that i'm ok. And wish that things could stay as they were before"

raya 2006

2006-10-29T22:50:00.000+01:00

This year is the 4th raya of mine in germany. As usual weekend baru celebrate (though this year i was kinda rajin..so i cooked pulut kuning and mee bandung and invited some friends to come over). And this year, I went to Sigmaringen(celebrating with the newly wed..has n syux..) and Reutlingen(celebrating in topek's ancient house and the bowling center). Beside me, jan and auni, intang, nena n fasi were also there. Yes, i ate a lot!! (´n rite know really concern of how many kilos i've gained..waaaaa). We sempat had 2 bowling game.

Credit to auni and has. It's been such a wonderful raya :-D. As what Tim Allen said "Schmeckt nicht, gibts nicht!". And to Topek also, thanx for your layanan nescafe at 2 o'clock in te morning. Wish everyone Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir Batin

making a comeback

2006-10-27T22:15:00.000+02:00

after for such a long long long long time, i'm thinking of writing my thoughts again.(cam nak wat comeback concert plak). Although almost everything that i wrote before are rubbish, i'm still happy. Thats all for now. Currently in Sigmaringen. I have to help the girls do the dishes for tomorrows raya party. Till then!

blog basi

2006-06-25T12:10:00.000+02:00

dah lama tak apdet blog..bz ngan project, project and project..i have like 6 projects this sem..tgl lg 2 minggu nak exam, tp x prepare lg..looks like someone has to drop subject jek! nooooooooooo

p/s: do i look like this, masa study??

congrats

2006-04-26T23:28:00.000+02:00

I wish you Has and Syux

Selamat Bertunang..

Danial Alexander Shah Ahmad Mawi aka boy

2006-04-06T22:55:00.000+02:00

spamming again

2006-04-05T12:28:00.000+02:00

do not know wut to write actually...einfach spamming lah..

a week becomes weeks
a month becomes months
a year becomes years...
please GOD, i'm begging You..don't let a year becomes years....

spamming my own blog

2006-03-29T19:07:00.000+02:00

Lamport Zeit

2006-03-28T10:29:00.000+02:00

Lamport Zeit(Timestamps)
Definition: Happened before relation
a->b ==> a happened before b

seperti mak lampir pula bunyinya. Kelas Networking3 ni amat me"mak lampir"kan aku. WTH mende yg aku blaja ni??

source: email

SUARA YANG DIDENGAR MAYAT

Yang Akan Ikut Mayat Adalah Tiga hal yaitu:
1. Keluarga
2. Hartanya
3. Amalnya

Ada Dua Yang Kembali Dan Satu akan Tinggal Bersamanya yaitu;
1. Keluarga dan Hartanya Akan Kembali
2. Sementara Amalnya Akan Tinggal Bersamanya.

Maka ketika Roh Meninggalkan Jasad...Terdengarlah Suara Dari Langit Memekik, "Wahai Fulan Anak Si Fulan..

Apakah Kau Yang Telah Meninggalkan Dunia, Atau Dunia Yang Meninggalkanmu
Apakah Kau Yang Telah Menumpuk Harta Kekayaan, Atau Kekayaan Yang Telah Menumpukmu
Apakah Kau Yang Telah Menumpuk Dunia, Atau Dunia Yang Telah Menumpukmu
Apakah Kau Yang Telah Mengubur Dunia, Atau Dunia Yang Telah Menguburmu."

Ketika Mayat Tergeletak Akan Dimandikan....Terdengar Dari Langit Suara Memekik, "Wahai Fulan Anak Si Fulan...

Mana Badanmu Yang Dahulunya Kuat, Mengapa Kini Te rkulai Lemah
Mana Lisanmu Yang Dahulunya Fasih, Mengapa Kini Bungkam Tak Bersuara
Mana Telingamu Yang Dahulunya Mendengar, Mengapa Kini Tuli Dari Seribu Bahasa
Mana Sahabat-Sahabatmu Yang Dahulunya Setia, Mengapa Kini Raib Tak Bersuara"

Ketika Mayat Siap Dikafan...Suara Dari Langit Terdengar Memekik,"Wahai Fulan Anak Si Fulan

Berbahagialah Apabila Kau Bersahabat Dengan Ridha
Celakalah Apabila Kau Bersahabat Dengan Murka Allah

Wahai Fulan Anak Si Fulan...

Kini Kau Tengah Berada Dalam Sebuah Perjalanan Nun Jauh Tanpa Bekal
Kau Telah Keluar Dari Rumahmu Dan Tidak Akan Kembali Selamanya
Kini Kau Tengah Safar Pada Sebuah Tujuan Yang Penuh Pertanyaan."

Ketika MayatDiusung.... Terdengar Dari Langit Suara Memekik, "Wahai Fulan Anak Si Fulan..

Berbahagialah Apabila Amalmu Adalah Kebajikan
Berbahagialah Apabila Matimu Diawali Tobat
Berbahagialah Apabila Hidupmu Penuh Dengan Taat."

Ketika Mayat Siap Dishalatkan....Terdengar Dari Langit Suara Memekik, "Wahai Fulan Anak Si Fulan..

Setiap Pekerjaan Yang Kau Lakukan Kelak Kau Lihat Hasilnya Di Akhirat
Apabila Baik Maka Kau Akan Melihatnya Baik
Apabila Buruk, Kau Akan Melihatnya Buruk."

Ketika Mayat Dibaringkan Di Liang Lahat....terdengar Suara Memekik Dari Langit,"Wahai Fulan Anak Si Fulan...

Apa Yang Telah Kau Siapkan Dari Rumahmu Yang Luas Di Dunia Untuk Kehidupan Yang Penuh Gelap Gulita Di Sini

Wahai Fulan Anak Si Fulan...

Dahulu Kau Tertawa, Kini Dalam Perutku Kau Menangis
Dahulu Kau Bergembira,Kini Dalam Perutku Kau Berduka
Dahulu Kau Bertutur Kata, Kini Dalam Perutku Kau Bungkam Seribu Bahasa."

Ketika Semua Manusia Meninggalkannya Sendirian....Allah Berkata Kepadanya, "Wahai Hamba-Ku.....

Kini Kau Tinggal Seorang Diri
Tiada Teman Dan Tiada Kerabat
Di Sebuah Tempat Kecil, Sempit Dan Gelap..
Mereka Pergi Meninggalkanmu.. Seorang Diri
Padahal, Karena Mereka Kau Pernah LanggarPerintahku
Hari Ini,....
Akan Kutunjukan Kepadamu
Kasih Sayang-Ku
Yang Akan Takjub Seisi Alam
Aku Akan Menyayangimu
Lebih Dari Kasih Sayang Seorang Ibu Pada Anaknya".

Kepada Jiwa-Jiwa Yang Tenang Allah Berfirman, "Wahai Jiwa Yang Tenang

Kembalilah Kepada Tuhanmu
Dengan Hati Yang Puas Lagi Diridhai-Nya
Maka Masuklah Ke Dalam Jamaah Hamba-Hamba-Ku
Dan Masuklah Ke Dalam Jannah-Ku"

laporan perjalanan

2006-03-22T14:57:00.000+01:00

Seperti yg dipromisedkan, berikut ialah laporan aku deutschland-de-la-tour (dah basi siut..hehehe)

on the 10th February, sampai kat umah intang fara antasha. Kat Regensburg ada satu shopping complex yg amat besar. Located kat Hauptbahnhof. Nyaris-nyaris aku sesampai tu tak sesat ke shopping complex. Apa aktiviti? Tengok munich kat kino, jalan-jalan kat stadt, intang masak baguette, aku makan, intang masak daging masak mami (sedap sehingga menjilat ibu jari), aku makan, intang masak nasi beryani, aku makan, intang pegi keje, aku tido, intang gosip, aku gosip, intang tido, aku baca buku cite (due to x leh tido sbb dh byk sgt tido). Pulang ke Ulm semula on 14th February.

Sesampai Ulm kol 12, amik barang dr abg am, race basuh baju (igt nk gi amsterdam, tetiba lan kata nk blk mesia plak...haih, penat jek den gi race membasuh baju)..almost kol 6 hari yg sama (think so..), aku was back in Haupbahnhof, buying my ticket to Frankfurt zur Hasmiza. Sesampai kat umah has, dh around kol 10 mlm.Tetiba ade kejadian plak kat lif dia. Jeng jeng jeng...Ada 2 org Deutsche sort of bergaduh kat dalam lift tu (tu kesimpulan kitorg laa), sorang dh terbaring sorang lg tatau apa yg dia buat ntah. Bila nampak jek kitorg dia berkata sesuatu. Bila nampak jek diorang kitorang pon lari naik tangga. Dengan beg besar gedabak, akhirnya aku sampai gak ke tingkat 4 dlm masa yg ntah berapa lama aku pon tak kira. Nasib baik org tu tak kejar kitorg. Dalam keadaan masih tercungap-cungap mencarik nafas, kitorg cuba berfikir, kenapa kitorg lari? Apa lelaki tu tadi cakap sebenanya? Betul ke diorang tengah gaduh? Jangan-jangan kawan dia pengsan x? Ke tadi tu sebenanya dia mintak tolong dari kita? Ke dia kata shit, sbb dia igt nnti kita cam muka dia n repot kat polis? Ke? Ke? Ke? Ke? From that day, kitorg masih terasa kefobiaan menunggu lift terbuka, tp we still tunggu n guna the lift sbb tak mahu membuang lemak dgn bersenam menaiki tangga (tu has laaa..eheheh). Pada malam yg sama, makcik rumah has blk from somewhere on earth yg aku tatau kat mana. Ni pon ada kejadian gak, tp tdk perlulah rasanya utk melanjutkan paragraph ini dgn lebih panjang hanya utk bercerita tentang has..heheheh..(has, jgn maaawwwaaaaahhhhh..huahuahua)..Aktiviti? Soping, soping, soping, makan kat restoren korea, makan kat restoren pakistan buah hati cik has n gaya, tunggu pakcik Dbahn yg berjanggut tak sampai-sampai, tunggu has balik keje di kedai buku yg berjanggut tak sampai-sampai..terima kasih has kerana ko berjaya mengconvincekan aku utk membuat pelaburan pada makanan dan pakaian.

17th february, penghantaran pulang cik has ke mesia. (waaaaa...rasa nk balik mesia gak!!). Kemudian perjalanan diteruskan, jumpa nena kat mainz. Jalan-jalan Mainz sekejap, beli kicap ABC pehtu balik bingen. Almost terlepas Haltesttelle Bingen, due to kedua-dua manusia ini telah dengan selambanya tido tdk sedarkan diri. Malamnya, amik wawa dr rumah the guyz n lepak tgk muvi, di mana nena tlh dgn nyenyaknya tido ketika kami (aku, wawa dan ihsan) sedang cuba menahan diri drpd termelelapkan mata utk terus menonton cite seorg remaja korea/jepun/cina berambut abu bakar ellah bermain ping pong dgn supernya. Time kasih to sujuden krn memprovidekan dinner, time kasih jua to anod krn spekulasinya dan gosipnya yg nyata skali tdk benar :-D (lain kali aku ajak ko pegi amsterdam plak yerr..dont dare to say no!), n tdk lupa time kasih jua kpd lut krn memulangkan cd gokusen nena spy boleh dicopy oleh aku. Activity memparasit di Bingen diteruskan mlm itu jua. Tido kol ntah bape pg, sembang, layan cite 18SG (eh cite antu masuk rated 18SG kan?) back to back (letih menjerit tgk bangsal 13, rasa benci ngan one misscall 2 sbb xdek ending, takde rasa pape tgk white noise), nena masak ikan talapia sweet sour, wawa masak tomyam, aku makan lg, wawa tanak belaja walaupon sudah ditglkan bersendirian di dlm bilik di mana akhirnya beliau kroh kroh kembali..heheheh, tgk DSDS menatap dgn penuh kesayuan Didi Knoblauch yg telah disingkirkan pada minggu tersebut (nena, Tobias menang!demit!). On the 20th february, meneruskan perjalanan ke Köln (had a hate-hate relationship dgn dbahn automat kat bingen sbb dia tanak accept card aku...eh not only card but card(S) aku)..took the next train 1 hour later)

Di Köln, menyambut aida n getto. Soping lagi. Balik gummersbach, lepak di rumah anep, layan bangsal 13 again. The next day, gi dortmund. Aktiviti: sembang almost sampai pagi (tu aida ngan zet..aku tak mampu dah), gi soping lg, beli seluar ski, gi SKI FAHREN (yeay akhirnya..slps 3 thn aku duk sini..barulaaa dpt pegi), zet n lee wat makan-makan (ade dim sum!!), try hair dresser baru aida, layan mangga edisi yg discan dan diuploadkan di torrent malaya bersama jidin, mus, lee, yabok, zet n aida.

On the 24th February, bergerak ke hannover. Jalan2 hamburg the next day. Leider tak bawak camera, end up guna camera phone yg sgt huduh gambanyerr. Then in the same day, headed to lübeck. Activity: layan muvi, layan most beautiful woman, gi aquarium tgk ikan. Thnx to cik Julie :-D . Then balik semula ke Hannover. Menjadi parasit dan pembuat jejemput berjaya di rumah sue n kun. Telah pandai mengadjust sendiri boiler di rumah sue. Telah berjaya membuatkan rumah sue spt rumah sendri. Maap yerr cik sue n cik kun!! Telah berkenalan dgn junior-junior yg bersopan-santun di Hannover. Telah beramah-mesra dgn mesra sekali dgn encik Meor. Telah...

Balik on the 5th March. Kaputt.

All in all, terima kasih korang kerana melayan aku yg cerewet ni. Korang mmg best! Datang laa ulm plak yerr!

P/s: saarbrückeners: sori tak melawat korg.

Klik sini utk view gambar..more, coming soon

Reality ke ni?

2006-03-13T05:21:00.000+01:00

nota kaki di kepala:
entry ini sekadar saje-saje..taken from inbox aku..suppose nk wat laporan psl germany de la tour aku..tp sepanjang seminggu after aku balik, asyik layan muvi jek..will start drafting it tomorrow..i hope..heheheh..

Dalam satu kisah percintaan yang menarik. Sepasang suami isteri
berjalan di tepi sebuah tasik yang indah. Kemudian mereka berhenti
di sebuah bangku yang disediakan di tepi tasik. Kemudian si isteri
bertanya kepada suami. Ini dialog mereka:

Isteri : Mengapa abang menyukai saya? Mengapa abang cintakan saya?

Suami : Abang tidak boleh menerangkan sebabnya, namun begitu abang
memang menyayangi dan mencintai yang!

Isteri : Abang tak boleh terangkan sebabnya? Bagaimana abang boleh
katakan abang sayang dan cintakan saya sedangkan abang
tidak boleh menerangkannya.

Suami : Betul! Abang tak tahu sebabnya tetapi abang boleh buktikan
bahawa abang memang cintakan Sayang!

Isteri : Tak boleh beri bukti! Tidak! Saya hendak abang terangkan
kepada saya sebabnya. Kawan-kawan saya yang lain yang
mempunyai suami dan teman lelaki, semuanya tahu menerangkan
mengapa mereka mencintai. Dalam bentuk puisi dan syair
lagi. Namun begitu abang tidak boleh terangkan sebabnya.

Si suami menarik nafas panjang dan dia berkata "Baiklah! Abang mencintai Sayang sebab sayang cantik, mempunyai suara yang merdu, penyayang dan mengingati abang selalu. Abang juga sukakan senyuman manis dan setiap tapak Sayang melangkah, di situlah cinta Abang bersama Sayang!"

Si isteri tersenyum dan berpuas hati dengan penerangan suaminya tadi. Namun begitu selang beberapa hari si isteri mengalami kemalangan koma. Si suami amat bersedih dan menulis sepucuk surat kepada isterinya yang disayangi. Surat itu diletakkan di sebelah katil isterinya di hospital. Surat tersebut berbunyi begini:

"Sayang!Jika disebabkan suara aku mencintai mu... sekarang bolehkah engkau bersuara? Tidak! Oleh itu aku tidak boleh mencintai mu. Jika disebabkan kasih sayang dan ingatan aku mencintai mu... sekarang bolehkah engkau menunjukkannya? Tidak! Oleh itu aku tidak boleh mencintai mu.Jika disebabkan senyuman aku mencintai mu... sekarang bolehkah engkau tersenyum? Tidak! Oleh itu aku tidak boleh mencintai mu.Jika disebabkan setiap langkah aku mencintai mu.... sekarang bolehkah engkau melangkah?

Tidak! Oleh itu aku tidak boleh mencintai mu. Jika cinta memerlukan sebabnya, seperti sekarang. Aku tidak mempunyai sebab mencintaimu lagi. Adakah cinta memerlukan sebab? Tidak! Aku masih mencintaimu dulu, kini, selamanya dan cinta tidak perlu ada sebab. Kadangkala perkara tercantik dan terbaik di dunia tidak boleh dilihat, dipegang. Namun begitu... ia boleh dirasai dalam hati."

cheese cake

2006-02-14T15:44:00.000+01:00

demi mu intan..telah kucarik resepi ini didlm semak samun timbunan file-file yg tak sempat aku kemaskan seblum ke rumahmu..ni adalah resepi cheese cake yg diambil drpd encik kamarulhasan fh-biberach

base

biskut berasa marie -hancurkan (agak2 laaa eh..aku x guna satu bungkus pon)
butter 100g - cairkan
campur kedua2nya..tekan dlm dulang sampai padat..sejukkan

cake

part A
3x250g cheese
4 biji KUNING telur
2 cawan gula (kurangkan kot..sbb ari tu aku wat cam super manis)
1 sudu kecil vanilla
1 sudu kecil jus lemon
1 sudu besar kulit lemon (sila parut..tp jgn sampai part putih dia..nnti pahit)
semua adunan di atas pukul dia!!

part B
4 biji PUTIH telur
pukul dia hingga super kembang..

campurkan B ke dalam A
pukul lg sehingga sebati..ni term hasan...tp aku rasa tak yah pukul over..

campur schlagsahne...(spt kes aku ari tuh...berusahalah membeli shlagsahne..tetiba lupa nk letak..tp still sedap gak..huahuahua..so kalu ko terlupa..no worries..cheese cake kamu still akan sedap jua!!)

kacau laa sume di atas sampai sebati
dah tu pour atas base
bakar at 190 degrees for 45 mins
sejukkan masuk dlm peti ais

nota kaki:
-baru blk dr umah intan
-lps ni nk gi umah has plak
-dem..my pizza hangit..gara2 apdet my playlist n layan cousin aku yg mengong
-tak jadi pegi amsterdam, sbb lan blk mesia last menet..pukul!!!
-lambat gi umah has, pehtu cm ada rasa bersalah sbb lambat..pehtu takut kena mawaaahhhh...waaaa ampun has!!
-rasa cm nk gi umah farr bila blk dr bingen..tp td farr tak angkat tepon plak..

short entry

2006-02-07T22:31:00.000+01:00

i have burukly cut my fringe...

the song: Planetarium (Hana Yori Dango OST)

2006-02-05T19:30:00.000+01:00

The moonlight evening shows it's face, and the voices of the children disappear
Somewhere far far off in the sky, you're probably out there
We snuck away into the end of the summer, and we found this park
Do remember what that constellation was?

Even if we can't be together, I want to follow my memories, and see the same happiness as you do
The fireworks burst in a flush, together with that scent

I want to go to where you are, I want to run off right now
You can't see anything in the pitch darkness, it's alright to be scared
The starry sky with countless amounts of stars is always going to be right here, even now
I won't cry, because a long time ago, I saw a beautiful sky with you

The sound of shoes echoing out on that road is still left in my ears
Staring at my large shadow, I wonder if you still think about me

Even though they shouldn't have changed at all, sad feelings swell in me
No matter what I feel, you're not here anymore

I want to go to your side, even if just for a little while
I love you most of all, it's stayed a strong feeling
I tried silently wishing on a shooting star
But I won't cry, the wish will go through, into the beautiful sky

Even if we can't be together, I want to follow my memories, and see the same happiness as you do
The fireworks burst in a flush, together with that scent

I want to go to where you are, clenching my small hands
I want to cry, it was such a beautiful sky
I tried silently wishing on a shooting star
But I won't cry, the wish will go through, into the beautiful sky...

yuuzukeyo kao dasu kieteku kodomo no koe
tooku tooku kono sora no doko ka ni kimi wa iru n darou
natsu no owari ni futarii de nuke dashita kono kouen de mitsuketa
ano seiza nan da ka oboeteru?

aenakute mo kioku wo tadotte onaji shiawase wo mitai n da
ano kaori to tomo ni hanabi ga patto hiraku

ikitai yo kimi no tokoro e ima sugu kake dashite ikitai yo
makkura de nani mo mienai kowakute mo daijoubu
kazoe kirenai hoshizora ga ima mo zutto koko ni aru n da yo
nakanai yo mukashi kimi to mita kirei na sora datta kara

ano michi made hibiku kutsu no ne ga mimi ni nokoru
ooki na jibun no kage wo mitsumete omou no deshou

chitto mo kawaranai hazu na noni setsunai kimochi fukurandeku
donna ni omotta tte kimi wa mou inai

ikitai yo kimi no soba ni chiisakute mo chiisakute mo
ichiban ni kimi ga suki da yo tsuyoku irareru
negai wo nagareboshi ni sotto tonaete mita keredo
nakanai yo todoku darou kirei na sora ni

aenakute mo kioku wo tadotte onaji shiawase wo mitai n da
ano kaori to tomo ni hanabi ga patto hiraku

ikitai yo kimi no tokoro e chiisa na te wo nigirishimete
nakitai yo sore wa sore wa kirei na sora datta
negai wo nagareboshi ni sotto tonaete mita keredo
nakitai yo todokanai omoi wo kono sora ni...

klik sini utk dload lagu

its hurt

2006-01-27T18:27:00.000+01:00

Apa maksud poyo ek??..lay sean(my junior) selalu tanya kitorang, wut poyo means..as she always receives dat compliment from us..heheheh..poyo conveys good or bad meaning eh??..aku pon tatau..as if for me, if people kata aku poyo..i can simply lol at it..hehehe...tried to find dlm kamus dewan..tapi tak jumpa...instead found dis fanni post..(well as for me its funny laa...sbb aku tak rasa pon perkataan poyo tu menambahkan kekiutan dalam perbualan harian aku)..

Poyo ni pulak sebenarnya hanya digunakan oleh budak2 perempuan masa zaman2 sekolah menengah dulu. Penggunaan perkataan poyo dalam percakapan seharian boleh menambahkan kekiutan perbualan harian mereka. Sebab tu aku tak pernah guna pun perkataan poyo tu. Masa aku sekolah dulu pun tak pernah dengar perkataan poyo ni.

Contoh situasi yg boleh digunakan perkataan poyo:
L: Aik cantik nampak hari ni. (sambil sengih2 kambing kat budak perempuan yg dia nak ngorat)
P: Poyo (sambil buat2 tak layan)
-read more-tomok new boyz pon leh jdk example poyo

waaaa..cakit gigi!! jez had Füllung tadi..dem its still hurt, although its already 630 in the evening, padahal gi doktor td kol 1030 pagi..alasan utk xdek mood nak blaja..but, its true wut!!..when it comes to sakit gigi..u can barely do anything..rasa mcm nak buang sume gigi yang ada jek..*sigh*

p/s:due to takde mood nak blaja..tersearch mende-mende merepek

computertechnik 2

2006-01-21T17:56:00.000+01:00

sakit otak belajar comptechnik 2..maka inilah hasilnya..dekstoptheme baru :-D

lyric again!!

2006-01-20T11:12:00.000+01:00

yohhh...mood aku...melancholy, blues or jiwang ek??..wth wif all the songs kan??..tak kesah laaa apa-apa pon moodnya..tp lagu ni liriknya menarik..full of meaning..Kiambang by M Nasir...

Kiambang

Kiambang
kau kembang di pinggir kali
Ungu warnamu berseri
Walaupun baumu tak seharum mawar
Namun kau masih tetap menawan

Kiambang
Bayangmu di air tenang
Mencerminkan wajah keriangan
Walaupun hidupmu dalam kesepian
Hanya berteman cahaya rembulan

Nasibmu kiambang di pinggir kali
Sedang kau mekar menghiasi desa
Kemarau panjang pun tiba
Keringlah dikau dalam dahaga

tetiba teringat katun ugly duckling plak..tatau ape relevannya :-D..mind me "tulis"ing all this rubbish..due to sakit otak nak exam maybe..

Dalam Hati Ada Cinta

2006-01-19T17:46:00.000+01:00

Kisah Cinta

Ini sebuah kisah cinta
Dari sekuntum bunga sekeping hati
Dua jiwa dalam khayalan
Berat rasa untuk berpisah

Dua dunia satu mimpi
Satu cita dalam satu hati
Terjerat dalam permainan hidup
Terkandas dalam cinta terhalang

Mengapa dunia
Kejam pada mereka yang bercinta
Mengapa bercinta
Harus ada saja perpisahan

Kisah cinta berakhir
Dengan penuhharapan
Kisah cinta berakhir
Dengan penuh ratapan
Kisah cinta...

leute, have you ever watched Dalam Hati Ada Cinta?..alaaa the cite samarinda kat tv3 yang ada ako mustapha, umie aida tu..my last entry ada mention gak pasal cite ni..(each time that i watch it, i cry..huahuahua tragis)..i've been searching like hell for the song actually..not knowing the title, the artist n bla bla...quite frustrating sbb tak tau nak search apa..tetiba one day, terasa plak nk dengar lagu2 melayu..n tetiba walllaaaahhhhh..ter'ada' laaa plak lagu ni..penat jek cari2..rupanya ada dlm collection sendiri..douuuuhhhhhhhh!!!

melancholy

2006-01-17T10:01:00.000+01:00

mel·an·chol·y (mĕl'ən-kŏl'ē) pronunciation

n.

Sadness or depression of the spirits; gloom: “There is melancholy in the wind and sorrow in the grass” (Charles Kuralt).
Pensive reflection or contemplation.
Archaic.

Black bile.
An emotional state characterized by sullenness and outbreaks of violent anger, believed to arise from black bile.

adj.

Affected with or marked by depression of the spirits; sad. See synonyms at sad.
Tending to promote sadness or gloom: a letter with some melancholy news.
Pensive; thoughtful.

[Middle English melancolie, from Old French, from Late Latin melancholia, from Greek melankholiā : melās, melan-, black + kholē, bile.]

mel'an·chol'i·ly adv.
mel'an·chol'i·ness n.

melancholykah aku??...thnx to intan for came out wif dis word last nite..kan dh jdk entry utk ari ni!!

kalut

2006-01-12T12:25:00.000+01:00

database project abgabe NEXT WEEK..(tak siap lg..till now)

rechnernetze protocol abgabe pon NEXT WEEK..

exams 31st. jan..

am so kalut!!!

on raya day

2006-01-10T22:44:00.000+01:00

masak anything special?? surely tak laaa kan..except that i baked instant brownies last nite..hehehe...ganz einfach..keluarkan tetepungan daripada paket..mix it with 50ml air, 100ml minyak and 3 biji telur, bakar...40 minutes later...wallllaaaahhh brownies anda sedia untuk dimakan!!

enjoyed my meal (tortellini berintikan spinat bergravykan cheeseeeeee...yummy!!) today..makcik waitress kedai tu sampai dah kenal aku, since aku suka jek menghabiskan duit makan kat rest. tu..

tomorrow 11.1.2006..genau 3 tahun di bumi deutschland..lots of experience, lots of kenangan (gut n bad), lots of junior(kena masuk gak dlm list..coz if lepas ni abg am blk, we are the only senior left in ulm..iskiskisk sedihnya jadi kakak :-( ), n not to forget lots and lots and lots of stuff bought (berguna dan yang tak berguna)..

database documentation?? got another 12 pages more to go *sigh*...bila laaa nak siap??...

hey, wut am i doing?? gi wat keje aaa!!!

hadiah aidiladha

2006-01-09T15:55:00.000+01:00

jez received news from kak suzi..kak liza dah selamat bersalin malam tadi..n its a BOY!!!can't wait to see the baby :-)
Congratulation to Weng and Kak Liza!!

dah habis cuti??...alaaaaa

2006-01-09T15:17:00.000+01:00

the title says it all..betapa taknaknyerr aku cuti berakhir..

menakjubkan!! selalunya kalau lepas-lepas cuti cari, kelas pertama di pagi isnin biasanya digantikan dengan kelas kroh kroh di atas katil..tapi pagi ni boleh plak bangun seawal jam 6.30 pg (which sebenarnya aku set alarm kol 530 pagi..endup bgn 1 hour later *sigh*)

(malam tadi turun snow agaknya..tak sedar langsung..bagus btul selimut aku)..status y!m pada pagi yang indah ini "isnin dh ker?? *sigh*"..dan berikut ialah conversation pertama untuk pagi ini :-D

she (1/9/2006 7:06:37 AM): kenape sigh?
me (1/9/2006 7:06:47 AM): sbb ari ni start sekolah blk
she (1/9/2006 7:06:53 AM): oo
me (1/9/2006 7:06:55 AM):*straight face*
she (1/9/2006 7:06:55 AM): *gelak*
she (1/9/2006 7:07:01 AM): selamat hari raye la ye
me (1/9/2006 7:07:03 AM): after cuti 2 weeks
she (1/9/2006 7:07:04 AM): aku ade exam rabu ni
she (1/9/2006 7:07:07 AM): *marahnyerr!!!*
me (1/9/2006 7:07:10 AM): ouh yerrr
me (1/9/2006 7:07:13 AM): hihihihi
me (1/9/2006 7:07:21 AM): selamat tak beraya laa yerrr
me (1/9/2006 7:07:24 AM): alaaa..
me (1/9/2006 7:07:27 AM): kita sama jek
me (1/9/2006 7:07:31 AM): x raya pon
me (1/9/2006 7:07:34 AM): dun worry
she (1/9/2006 7:07:38 AM): ye ye
she (1/9/2006 7:07:39 AM): haha
she (1/9/2006 7:07:47 AM): ko ape cer?
she (1/9/2006 7:07:51 AM): lame gile ilang
she (1/9/2006 7:08:00 AM): takat apdet blog letak mende dlm inbox
she (1/9/2006 7:08:03 AM): tayah la dude
me (1/9/2006 7:08:13 AM): oit...bz aaaa
she (1/9/2006 7:09:17 AM): haha
she (1/9/2006 7:09:19 AM): saje je sakat ko
she (1/9/2006 7:09:22 AM): ala sensitip
she (1/9/2006 7:09:26 AM): ye la aku tau la sape aku
me (1/9/2006 7:09:31 AM): hahahaha
me (1/9/2006 7:09:34 AM): tapape
me (1/9/2006 7:09:42 AM): sat
she (1/9/2006 7:09:54 AM): baek baek
she (1/9/2006 7:31:16 AM): dah?
me (1/9/2006 7:31:26 AM): dh
she (1/9/2006 7:31:32 AM): bz ye?
she (1/9/2006 7:31:34 AM): takpe la
me (1/9/2006 7:31:38 AM): nk gi kelas dh
she (1/9/2006 7:31:42 AM): baek
she (1/9/2006 7:31:45 AM): jln elok-elok
me (1/9/2006 7:32:13 AM): baik mama
she (1/9/2006 7:32:25 AM): dem
she (1/9/2006 7:32:28 AM): boipren pon takde
she (1/9/2006 7:32:31 AM): panggil mama
she (1/9/2006 7:32:32 AM): dem
me (1/9/2006 7:34:03 AM): *gelak lg*

baeeekkkk...saya akan apdet blog...hahahahh...today's entry is fer u, bebeh!!
lately mmg banyak entry copy dari inbox jek...wut to do..takde idea nak tulis maa...plus..bila ada idea...masa plak tak mengIJINkan..:-(

raya haji kat sini..seperti hari-hari biasa yang lain..takde apa yang beza pon..(maybe kalu duk albstadt best kot..ada org2 turki masjid yg sembelih lembu)..kalu kat mesia ni, mama mesti masak best-best ni :-(...kena pakai baju kurung ke eh sok?? mungkin tak kot..masa muda-muda dulu wat laa pakai baju kurung gi kelas dalam keadaan kesejukan..sekarang dah tak kot :-D..zum Glück sok ada kelas petang kol 2 jek..yea yea..leh bleiben zu Hause!!

enuf 4 now..documentation n presentation folie tak siap lagi :-(

wish y'all S E L A M A T H A R I R A Y A A I D I L A D H A

something ilmiah to read

2006-01-03T18:10:00.000+01:00

source: sha's inbox (fwded from cik juraida)

Apakah dia istidraj itu?

Ianya adalah pemberian nikmat Allah kepada manusia yang mana pemberian itu tidak diredhaiNya. Inilah yang dinamakan istidraj. Rasullulah s. a. w. bersabda :"Apabila kamu melihat bahawa Allah Taala memberikan nikmat kepada hambanya yang selalu membuat maksiat (durhaka), ketahuilah bahawa orang itu telah diistidrajkan oleh Allah SWT." (Diriwayatkan oleh At-Tabrani, Ahmad dan Al-Baihaqi)

Tetapi, manusia yang durhaka dan sering berbuat maksiat yang terkeliru dengan pemikirannya merasakan bahawa nikmat yang telah datang kepadanya adalah kerana Allah berserta dan kasih dengan perbuatan maksiat mereka. Masih ada juga orang ragu-ragu, kerana kalau kita hendak dapat kebahagian di dunia dan akhirat kita mesti ikut jejak langkah Rasullulah saw dan berpegang teguh pada agama Islam. Tetapi bagaimana dengan ada orang yang sembahyang 5 waktu sehari semalam, bangun tengah malam bertahajjud, puasa bukan di bulan Ramadhan sahaja, bahkan Isnin, Khamis dan puasa sunat yang lain. Tapi, hidup mereka biasa sahaja. Ada yang susah juga. Kenapa? Dan bagaimana pula orang yang seumur hidup tak sembahyang, puasa pun tak pernah, rumahnya tersergam indah, kereta mewah menjalar, duit banyak, dia boleh hidup kaya dan mewah. Bila kita tanya, apa kamu tak t akut mati? Katanya, alah, orang lain pun mati juga, kalau masuk neraka, ramai-ramai.Tak kisahlah! Sombongnya mereka, takburnya mereka.

Rasullulah s. a. w. naik ke langit bertemu Allah pun tak sombong, Nabi Sulaiman, sebesar-besar pangkatnya sehinggakan semua makhluk di muka bumi tunduk di bawah perintahnya pun tak sombong! Secantik-cantik Nabi Yusof dan semerdu suara Nabi Daud, mereka tak sombong. Bila sampai masa dan ketikanya, mereka tunduk dan sujud menyembah Allah.

Manusia istidraj - Manusia yang lupa daratan. Walaupun berbuat maksiat, dia merasa Allah menyayanginya. Mereka memandang hina kepada orang yang beramal. "Dia tu siang malam ke masjid, basikal pun tak mampu beli, sedangkan aku ke kelab malam pun dengan kereta mewah. Tak payah beribadatpun, rezeki datang mencurah-curah. Kalau dia tu sikit ibadat tentu boleh kaya macam aku, katanya sombong." Sebenarnya, kadang-kadang Allah memberikan nikmat yang banyak dengan tujuan untuk menghancurkannya.

Rasullulah s. a. w bersabda: "Apabila Allah menghendaki untuk membinasakan semut, Allah terbangkan semua itu dengan dua sayapnya" (Kitab NasaibulæIbad) Anai-anai, jika tidak bersayap, maka dia akan duduk diam di bawah batu atau merayap di celah-celah daun, tetapi jika Allah hendak membinasakannya, Allah berikan dia sayap. Lalu, bila sudah bersayap, anai-anai pun menjadi kelkatu. Kelkatu, bila mendapat nikmat(sayap), dia akan cuba melawan api. Begitu juga manusia, bila mendapat nikmat, cuba hendak melawan Allah swt.

Buktinya, Firaun. Nikmatnya tak terkira, tidak pernah sakit, bersin pun tidak pernah kerana Allah berikannya nikmat kesihatan. Orang lain selalu sakit, tapi Firaun tidak, orang lain mati, namun dia masih belum mati-mati juga, sampai rasa angkuh dan besar diri lantas mengaku dirinya tuhan. Tapi dengan nikmat itulah Allah binasakan dia. Namrud, yang cuba membakar Nabi Ibrahim. Betapa besar pangkat Namrud? Dia begitu sombong dengan Allah, akhirnya menemui ajalnya hanya disebabkan seekor nyamuk masuk ke dalam lubang hidungnya. Tidak ada manusia hari ini sekaya Qarun. Anak kunci gudang hartanya sahaja kena dibawa oleh 40 ekor unta. Akhirnya dia ditenggelamkan bersama-sama hartanya sekali akibat terlalu takbur. Jadi kalau kita kaya, jangan sangka Allah sayang, Qarun lagi kaya, akhirnya binasa juga. Jadi, jika kita kaji dan fikir betul-betul, maka terjawablah segala keraguan yang mengganggu fikiran kita.

Mengapa orang kafir kaya, dan orang yang berbuat maksiat hidup senang /mewah. Pemberian yang diberikan oleh Allah pada mereka bukanlah yang diredhaiNya. Rupa-rupanya ianya adalah bertujuan untuk menghancurkannya. Untuk apa hidup ini tanpa keredhaanNya? Tetapi jangan pula ada orang kaya beribadat, masuk masjid dengan kereta mewah kita katakan itu istidraj. Orang naik pangkat, istidraj. Orang-orang besar, istidraj. Jangan! Orang yang mengunakan nikmatnya untuk kebajikan untuk mengabdi kepada Allah bukan istidraj. Dan jangan pula kita tidak mahu kekayaan. Kalau hendak selamat, hidup kita mesti ada pegangan.

Bukan kaya yang kita cari, juga bukan miskin yang kita cari. Tujuan hidup kita adalah mencari keredaan Allah. Bagaimana cara untuk menentukan nikmat yang diredhai Allah? Seseorang itu dapat menyedari hakikat yang sebenarnya tentang nikmat yang diterimanyaitu ialah apabila dia bersyukur nikmatnya. Dia akan mengunakan pemberian ke jalan kebaikan dan sentiasa redha dan ikhlas mengabdikan diri kepada Allah. Maka segala limpah kurnia yang diperolehi itu adalah nikmat pemberian yang diredhai Allah. Bila tujuan hidup kita untuk mencari keredhaan Allah, niscaya selamatlah kita di dunia dan akhirat.

Wallahualam.

"Dari Abdullah bin 'Amr R. A, Rasulullah S. A. W bersabda:
" Sampaikanlah pesanku biarpun satu ayat.."

more on AGM 2005 @ Nürnberg

2006-01-02T00:05:00.000+01:00

-- curik masa nak apdet blog :-D --

sile klik gambar utk ke foto link aku (courtesy of cik aidahanie dan encik zuhri)

first of all lots of thanx to iski, syifa, ziha, norlis n zatil krn memberi penginapan dan berjaya melayan ke"kroh"an kami n able to "coop" ngan jokes kitorg :-D ..(sowieee kalu kitorg semakkan umah korg..eheheh)..nice knowing y'all..lawak peti ais, seluar kaki tiga n other lawak still aku takleh lupa..hehehehe..hope to see u gals again nnti yerr..u gals take over there aite!!

credit to tukang masak berkaliber fasi, fariz, aida, wawa, auni, nana, mitha, huda..dan jugek cik chefin intan antasha..

Peralihan kuasa:

Presiden: Hasanuddien Aminudin (Fh Sigmaringen)

Timbalan Presiden I: Jessnor Arif Mat Jizat (Fh Karlsruhe)

Timbalan Presiden II: Saleha Aman ( Fh Mannheim)

Setiausaha: Munawwir Khan Yusoff Khan ( Fh Reutlingen)

Naib Setiausaha: Amir Affandi (Fh Wolfsburg)

Bendahari: Mohd Azwan Aziz (Fh Karlsruhe)

Naib Bendahari: Mohd Fairuz Abd Jalal (Fh Weingarten)

Naib Presiden II: Nur Fairuza ( Fh Heilbronn)

weiter:

agak menyedihkan sbb tak ramai yg datang untuk agm tahun ni..less than 100

kutipan yuran yg menyedihkan..(yg tulih blog ni pon asik lupa nk bayo yuran mgss..hehehe)

cik saraya kata nak cut terus 20€ dr elaun setiap pelajar utk yuran mgss

byk yg aku tak dengar sebab banyak duduk kat dapur :-D

the next day after agm tu, me, aida n intan gi Dokumentation Zentrum..kat situ belajar laaa sket pasal sejarah nazi n Hitler..Nürnberg adalah antara tapak terawal Nazi..find a time to read the boikot letter tu eh ;-)

p/s: quite frustrated guna fotopages ni..sbb blh upload nur 6 photos at a time
on the other hand nk dload gamba cpt plak...*sigh*..can't workout my html table coding menambahkan lg frustratednyerr!!

A petai a day keeps the doctor away

2005-12-31T02:14:00.000+01:00

this one taken from inbox aku :-)

Petai contain three natural sugars -sucrose, fructose and glucose -
combined with fiber, petai gives an instant, sustained and substantial boost of energy.
Research has proved that just two servings of petai provide enough energy
for a strenuous 90-minute workout.
No wonder petai is the number one fruit with the world's leading athletes.
But energy isn't the only way petai can help us keep fit.
It can also help overcome or prevent a substantial number of illnesses and
conditions, making it a must to add to our daily diet.

Depression:
According to a recent survey undertaken by MIND among people suffering from
depression, many felt much better after eating petai.
This is because petai contain tryptophan, a type of protein that the body
converts into serotonin, known to make you relax,
improve your mood and generally make you feel happier.

PMS(premenstrual syndrome) :
Forget the pills - eat petai. The vitamin B6 it contains regulates blood
glucose levels, which can affect your mood.

Anemia:
High in iron, petai can stimulate the production of hemoglobin in the blood
and so helps in cases of anemia.

Blood Pressure:
This unique tropical fruit is extremely high in potassium yet low in salt,
making it the perfect to beat blood pressure.
So much so, the US Food and Drug Administration has just allowed the petai
industry
to make official claims for the fruit's ability to reduce the risk of blood
pressure and stroke.

Brain Power :
200 students at a Twickenham (Middlesex) school were helped through their
exams this year
by eating petai at breakfast, break, and lunch in a bid to boost their
brain power.
Research has shown that the potassium-packed fruit can assist learning by
making pupils more alert.

Constipation :
High in fiber, including petai in the diet can help restore normal bowel
action,
helping to overcome the problem without resorting to laxatives.

Hangovers:
One of the quickest ways of curing a hangover is to make a petai milkshake,
sweetened with honey.
The petai calms the stomach and, with the help of the honey, builds up
depleted blood sugar levels,
while the milk soothes and re-hydrates your system.

Heartburn:
Petai has a natural antacid effect in the body, so if you suffer from
heartburn, try eating petai for soothing relief.

Morning Sickness:
Snacking on petai between meals helps to keep blood sugar levels up and
avoid morning sickness.

Mosquito bites:
Before reaching for the insect bite cream, try rubbing the affected area
with the inside of the petai skin.
Many people find it amazingly successful at reducing swelling and
irritation.

Nerves:
Petai is high in B vitamins that help calm the nervous system.

Overweight :
Studies at the Institute of Psychology in Austria found pressure at work
leads to gorging on comfort food like chocolate and crisps.
Looking at 5,000 hospital patients, researchers found the most obese were
more likely to be in high-pressure jobs.
The report concluded that, to avoid panic-induced food cravings,
we need to control our blood sugar levels by snacking on high carbohydrate
foods every two hours to keep levels steady.

Ulcers:
Petai is used as the dietary food against intestinal disorders because of
its soft texture and smoothness.
It is the only raw fruit that can be eaten without distress in
over-chronicler cases.
It also neutralizes over-acidity and reduces irritation by coating the
lining of the stomach.

Temperature control:
Many other cultures see petai as a "cooling" fruit that can lower both the
physical and emotional temperature of expectant mothers.
In hoiland, for example, pregnant women eat petai to ensure their baby is
born with a cool temperature.

Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD) :
Petai can help SAD sufferers because they contain the natural mood
enhancer, tryptophan.

Smoking:
Petai can also help people trying to give up smoking.
The B6, B12 they contain, as well as the potassium and magnesium found in
them,
help the body recover from the effects of nicotine withdrawal.

Stress:
Potassium is a vital mineral, which helps normalize the heartbeat,
sends oxygen to the brain and regulates your body's water balance.
When we are stressed, our metabolic rate rises, thereby reducing our
potassium levels.
These can be rebalanced with the help of a high-potassium petai snack.

Strokes:
According to research in "The New England Journal of Medicine, " eating
petai as part of a regular diet
can cut the risk of death by strokes by as much as 40%"

Warts:
Those keen on natural alternatives swear that if you want to kill off a
wart,
take a piece of petai and place it on the wart.
Carefully hold the petai in place with a plaster or surgical tape!

So, you see, petai really is a natural remedy for many ills.
When you compare it to an apple, it has four times the protein, twice the
carbohydrates, three times the phosphorus,
five times the vitamin A and iron, and twice the other vitamins and
minerals.
It is also rich in potassium and is one of the best value foods around.
So maybe its time to change that well-known phrase so that we say, "A Petai
a day keeps the doctor away"

blues...

2005-12-30T15:45:00.000+01:00

Alhamdulillah, AGM 2005 läuft gut..cik cheffin intan antasha really did a gut job..n of course the krew2 masak...mmg korg masak yg sgt best (tukar profession laaa xyah jdk engineer...jdk cheffin)...aku dpt email dr kak san, cik saraya puji korg masak sedap!!..siap mintak resepi lagi..(so cik wawa prepare laaa resepi lontong kamu yerr)..

aku cite lg nnti psl agm 2005 di Nürnberg after aku dh upload gamba..(tu pon courtesy of cik aidahanie n cik antasha..:-D)

Terasa seperti berada dlm keadaan blues plak bila tetiba terdengar Hello by Lionel Richie

I've been alone with you inside my mind
And in my dreams I've kissed your lips a thousand times
I sometimes see you pass outside my door
Hello, is it me you're looking for?

I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
You're all I've ever wanted, (and) my arms are open wide
'Cause you know just what to say
And you know just what to do
And I want to tell you so much, I love you ...

I long to see the sunlight in your hair
And tell you time and time again how much I care
Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow
Hello, I've just got to let you know

'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying, I love you ...

Hello, is it me you're looking for?
'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying ... I love you

How i wish someone dedicate kan lagu ni pd aku..hikhikhik..like wat lan used to say to me..dun live life in eutopia, where everything r in perfekto..like my friends used to say gak..live the present life..so i guess, i'll have to stop my daydreaming habit..

shout out

2005-12-30T01:53:00.000+01:00

H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y F A S I and K U N U T

the long day

2005-12-24T22:14:00.000+01:00

H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y Z E T

got up for semayang subuh pg td about 745, then sambung tido blk..woke up like kol 1.30 ptg..(still sakit kepala sampai skrang)..maybe sbb penat semlm kot..after sport, dinner ngn jan semlm, copy files dr external harddisk abg yoe plus cuci pinggan2 di dapur menggunakan showergel (sabun basuh pinggan unfortunately dh abih)..i ended up slept at 2 ke 3 am..

christmas eve..hari ni kedai tutup kol 2 ptg rupenyerr..dem aku tatau...at 5 aku gi stadt..igtkan nk beli sabun basuh pinggan n popia yg intan kirim for agm..sesampai di stadt i was like terkaku di tgh stadt..not knowing where to go to :-(..otak was like kosong gila..cam u cant decide wut to do next or where to go next..heheheh..*sigh* (i have to get out of this place)

yeay...am going to Nürnberg tomorrow..cant wait to see intan, cant stay here in ulm any longer :-D

Have heard of Garbage - Special?..credit to miss ucu yg tiga suku..hehehe..

I'm living without you
I know all about you
I have run you down into the ground
Spread disease about you over town

I used to adore you
I couldn't control you
There was nothing that I wouldn't do
To keep myself around and close to you

Do you have an opinion?
A mind of your own?
I thought you were special
I thought you should know
But I've run out of patience
I couldn't care less

I...
I...

Do you have an opinion?
A mind of your own?
I thought you were special
I thought you should know

I used to amuse you
I knew that I'd lose you
Now you're here and begging for a chance
But there's no way in hell I'd take you back

Do you have an opinion?
A mind of your own?
I thought you were special
I thought you should know
But I've run out of patience
I've run out of comments
I'm tired of the violence
I couldn't care less

I'm looking for a new [4x]

We were the talk of the town [4x]

I thought you were special [4x]

I like the part I thought you were special :-D

Happy Holidays my friends in Germany!! And Selamat Study utk exam ;-)

some how interesting

2005-12-23T09:07:00.000+01:00

You are driving along in your car on a wild, stormy night, it's raining heavily, when suddenly you pass by a bus stop, and you see three people waiting for a bus:

1. An old lady who looks as if she is about to die.
2. An old friend who once saved your life.
3. The perfect partner you have been dreaming about.

Which one would you choose to offer a ride to, knowing very well that there could only be one passenger in your car?

Think before you continue reading...

....

....

.....

.....

......

.........

.......

This is a moral/ethical dilemma that was once actually used as part of a job application.
* You could pick up the old lady, because she is going to die, and thus you should save her first;
* or you could take the old friend because he once saved your life, andthis would be the perfect chance to pay him back.

* However, you may never be able to find your perfect mate again.

The candidate who was hired (out of 200 applicants) had no trouble
coming up with his answer. Guess what was his answer?

....
.....
....
....

He simply answered: "I would give the car keys to my Old friend and let him take the lady to the hospital. I would stay behind and wait for the bus with the partner of my dreams."

Sometimes, we gain more if we are able to give up our stubborn thought imitations. Never forget to "Think Outside of the Box."

taken from my box in mail :-D (tak fanniii aaa wei!!!)

mengulat lagi

2005-12-22T15:06:00.000+01:00

trying "marathonly" to finish reading We'll Meet Again..mood cuti merosakkan segala-galanya..hari ni tak pegi kelas e-comm..*sigh*..neway, ni gambo blakang rumah aku :-D..

phsm to phsd

2005-12-20T21:52:00.000+01:00

Akan datang di pawagam berhampiran anda..

multitasking

2005-12-20T13:11:00.000+01:00

sementara menunggu masa nk gi lab kol 2, sempat aku check inbox aku sat, dlm masa yg sama cuba menghabiskan We'll meet again by Mary higgins Clark..(try tukar buku plak..interesting gak buku ni)..ouh yerrr..balik citer psl email..somehow subject email ni caught my interest..subject dia Kenal Isteri Kenal Masyarakat written by Dr Hishamuddin Alham..

"Kamu akan cepat mengenali masyarakat bila kamu dah
kahwin nanti" begitulah nasihat rakan saya di England
satu ketika dulu. Ketika itu saya belum berkahwin dan
agak kurang faham apa yang dimaksudkannya.

Kini setelah 22 tahun berumah tangga – ungkapannya itu
semakin jelas maksudnya. Rupa-rupanya bagaimana kita
mengendalikan pasangan (suami / isteri) kita itu akan
mempengaruhi bagaimana kita mengendalikan masyarakat.

Walaupun isteri/suami kita itu hanya seorang (mungkin
tidak bagi seorang lelaki yang berkahwin lebih dari
satu) – tetapi ragamnya itu seolah-olah mewakili
masyarakat sekeliling kita.

Kita akan belajar bagaimana hendak menerima kelemahan
dan menghargai kekuatan yang ada pada isteri kita.
Kekadang kita para suami ini tidak adil – mengharapkan
isteri tu macam Aishah – tapi diri sendiri tak pulak
nak jadi macam Rasulullah – begitu jugalah sebaliknya.

Untuk menghargai kekuatan seseorang itu bukanlah satu
perkara yang mudah. Kita sering menumpukan perhatian
kepada kelemahan sesaorang. Kesian tengok si isteri tu
– terutama yang bekerja sepenuh masa di rumah [ ni tak
– bila isteri tu suri rumah dikatakan – isteri I tu
tak kerja – kesian dia…. ] bertungkus lumus membasuh,
memasak dan menguruskan anak-anak di rumah, jarang
kita hendak mengeluarkan kata-kata penghargaan. Yang
tercetus dimulut ialah apabila isteri lambat masak,
contohnya : "You buat ape kat rumah ni …. dok tengok
cerita cina ajee…" kebetulan masa tu isteri sedang
berehat depan TV menyaksikan cerita cina dengan penuh
tekun sekali…. Dia dah target nak masak simple aje
petang tu sebab badannya dah tak larat ….

Saya pernah bercuti dan lihat sendiri bagaimana isteri
saya cuba mengendalikan rumah … kussss semangat ….
Kalau basuh baju tu kekadang 4 kali basuh mesen 9 kg.
Saya hanya mampu membilas dan memasukkan baju dalam
mesen … yang menyidaikannya, mengangkat dan
melipatkannya tu…. . Kekadang saje nak usik si isteri
…. Buat ape kat rumah tadi.. walaupun saya dah jangka
jawapannya – "main main aje …"

Kekadang tanya juga kat isteri – "sakit tak masa nak
bersalin dulu" …. Walaupun dah tahu apa jawapannya.
Saya berpeluang melihat secara live kelahiran 6 dari 9
orang anak saya …. Allah sahaja yang tahu betapa
besarnya pengorbanan yang telah dicurahkan oleh isteri
kita masing-masing …. Air mata gembira ini bercucuran
keluar tanpa disedari apabila keluar sahaja anak itu
setelah melihat betapa siksanya si isteri menanggung
kesakitan. Itupun sudah cukup bagi kita untuk
mengatakan pada isteri – "dahlah Yang .. biar segala
kerja rumah ni abang buat …Yang dah berkorban cukup
banyak" … tapi mana ada isteri yang akan meredhakan
perkara itu. Istilah "penat" itu seolah-olah tidak
wujud dalam kamus mereka.

Yakinilah wahai suami dan juga isteri – jika amalan
menghargai pasangan kita itu di lakukan dalam
rumahtangga – ianya akan tertumpah pada masyarakat di
luar sana. Kita akan mudah menghargai kekuatan dan
memaafkan kelemahan orang lain. Jika kita nak betulkan
kelemahan orang lain pun – kita akan lakukan dengan
penuh hikmah sepertimana juga jika kita nak menegur
isteri kita tersayang – terutama masa datang bulannya.

Dalam satu kajian dibuat oleh orang barat yang
mengkaji ramai orang yang hebat-hebat dan berjaya di
dunia ini – mereka ada satu sifat yang sama – "they
are good finders. They find good in others" Mereka
melihat kebaikan dalam setiap orang. Inilah juga
formula bagi kita nak mengendalikan anak kita yang
agak "ligat" atau mengendalikan rakan yang agak liar –
cuba fokus pada kebaikan, kehebatan dan kekuatan yang
ada pada mereka – sedikit demi sedikit kita akan lihat
perubahannya ….cubalah …. Nobody is perfect except
Allah swt.

tgh baca pasal isteri tu, teringat plak aku pd mak kat rumah. Rumah sentiasa in tip top condition walaupon dia keje. Bila wat keje rumah pon x penah merungut..ekceli byk sgt kalu nk cerita psl mak ni kan..*sigh*..misssshhhhh MAMA

sort of agree wif melihat kebaikan dalam setiap orang..menegur orang lain dgn menggunakan kebaikan yg ada pd diri dia selalunya meninggal kesan yg lebih..btul tak?

mengulat di kala kelas softwaretechnology

2005-12-19T09:31:00.000+01:00

berkut ialah hasil dr pengulatan di kelas tersebut:

1- What time is it now?
4 in da evening

2- What are you doing?
shud i be aswering dat, or the tajuk explained it oredi

3- Thinking of Anyone?
yes

4- Are you Happy/Blur/Sad?
all of them

5- Why?
rasa everything cm mess up

6- What is the last thing you ate?
yufka yg di beli semlm

7- What is the last thing you drank?
air dr filter brita

8- Did you dump anyone in this month?
nope

9- Were you dumped in this month?
nope

10- Anyone you know that got Dumped?
nope

11- Whats the last thing that you've heard made you cry?
byk sgt...cant seem to remember which one was the last one

12- Whats the last movie that made you cry?
qaisy & laila kot

13- Who do you wish to be by your side?
billy zane...those eyes r jez killin!!...hehehehe

14- Regretted anything in this month?
hmmm..byk sgt..dun even know where to start

15- Did you fall in love/out of love in this month?
tatau laa..

16- Who was the last person you talked to?
a girlfriend

17- Who was the last person you hugged?
a friend

18- Who was the last person you kissed?
hmmmmm...my pillow...erk...thats not who kan??? wateva

19- Who was the last person you smsed?
farr

20- What did you Dream of today?
i slept like a baby..x mimpi apa2

21- Who can make you laugh?
people who came up wif good joke of course

22- Who always takes care of you?
my family, friends

23- Anyone you know is in Pain?
i'm not sure..

24- What happen?
something happened

25- What do you wanna do before you die?
berjaya menjadi manusia yg di pandang mulia di sisi-Nya *sigh*...byknyerr dosa hambaMu ini :-(

26- What song is stuck in your head?
song from cromok n nur fatima...gol & gincu OST

27- What song are you listening to?
rahim maarof's song...(can u believe it??...its cinta kristal)

28- Worried about anyone?
yup..hope dia ok..

29- What age do you wanna get married?
never thought of planning in wut age shud i be marrying someone :-D

30- How many children do you want?
hehehhe..tiga

31- Where do you wanna go for your Honeymoon?
hmmmm...cant think of any places

32- Any plans in this 2 months?
blaja, blaja, exam..finally tido, like i hv never slept before

33- Describe a perfect wedding?
dun want to think of it..

34- Describe a perfect Date?
bersembang, unaware of the time, unaware of people around...

35- Where would you like to go for Holiday?
some place in switzerland..geneve lake..

36- How are you feeling right now?
sakit kepala

37- Do you play instrument?
nope

38- Do you have a band?
nope

39- What song do you want to listen to?
unwell

40- Wish you could die?
no..x cukup amal..n lom cukup bertaubat lg

41- Do you give up easily?
never

42- Do you know anyone that likes to flirt?
yeah

43- Do you know anyone that acts like a kid?
hmmm...ada kot

44- Do you know anyone that is rude?
yup

45- Do you know any Bitches/Bastards?
ja klar!!

46- What is the sweetest thing anyone have ever done?
blank...x leh jwb soalan :-(

47- Any sweet unforgetful memories with your Ex?
mkn kt chilli's..

48- Honestly.. Which Ex do you love the most?
hahaahha...they know..

49- Who do you want to be hugged by?
*wink* *wink*

50- Single or Taken?
single after taken by mistakes

51- Any message to your loved one?
mama, i missshhhh u!!

52- Where do you wanna go with your loved one?
nk gi hutan lentang kat pahang lg sekali dgn anak2 buah aku, its good to be like kids again!!

53- What is your Heritage?
my mums patience

54- How many siblings do you have?
tiga

55- Anyone special in your heart?
yup

57- Who was the last person to do this survey?
zull aka ober...kt frenster

58- Do you know him/her?
yup...old fren kt school

59- What do you think of him/her?
very successful person

ekceli...aku x sempat siapkan pon survey ni..blk umah br siapkan..sambil diganggu oleh pengulat yg dh tau sok ada test tp x reti2 nk gi blaja..kata break sat..kengkunun take 5..tp nmpaknyerr end up take 60 kot..hahahah..ouh yerrr...somehow aku teringat psl this one sentence...so aku quote blk "i'm not willing to sacrifice myself over you"..aku tatau ape motifnyerr aku letak kt entry ni..tp i'm sort of admire the sentence..not sarcasticly admire..but admire as n really admire..

me being tired n mengantuk

2005-12-13T23:18:00.000+01:00

ada clip fanni gak aaa...so dload aaa nk tgk eh..if dh xleh jez msg yerr...

wrong ball, salah bola, falscher Ball
p/s: aku letak link ni sat jek..pehni aku remove...

pompuan tatau masak

2005-12-12T14:21:00.000+01:00

sudah beberapa kian lamanya aku mengalami masalah tidur yang kronik..walaupun dah cuba try tido seawal jam 12, aku end up melelapkan mata pd pukul 2 atau 3 pg..even selps satu hari yg memenatkan dan terlalu mengantukkan pon, aku still mempunyai masalah yg sama..teringat discussion arip ngan abg megat dulu..they have dis kind of sleeping trouble also, where their brain couldnt stop working..which is itulah yang aku tgh alami sekarang..its like there is one voice in my head that keep talking, talking n talking..cthnyerr dia akan bercakap tentang apa yang aku buat dlm satu hari tu, takpon dia menceritakan cerita desperate housewives episode 8 dan terus-menerus memberi comment tentang some of the slot dlm episode tu..(sounds crazy rite!!)..sesapa penah mengalami masalah spt aku ni dan tlh berjaya mengatasinya, silalah berkongsi dgn aku..atau perhaps sesiapa jua yg sdg mengalami masalah ini dan masih blum menjumpai cara utk mengatasinya, silalah jua kita berkongsi masalah ini(so dat kita leh gi psychiatrist sesama)

entry hari ni pon aku cilok dari email aku..ilmiyah sket naaa

Berapa ramai lelaki yang boleh menjadi imam??

Kalau perempuan tidak boleh memasak, dikutuk dan disuruh belajar. Kalau lelaki tak boleh jadi imam kita kata okay saja.
Jangan diperbesarkan nanti mereka terasa hati.

"Apalah perempuan, tak pandai masak siapa nak kahwin dengan awak!" Begitulah kata rakan sejawat lelaki pada seorang
anak dara, juga rakan sejawat kami. Maka jawaplah si gadis ayu itu yang dia tidak sempat belajar memasak sebab dari kecil tidak digalakkan keluarga sebaliknya di suruh menumpukan perhatian pada pelajaran saja.
Sementelah tinggal di asrama, peluang pulang ke rumah terhad dan tidak sempat turun ke dapur membantu ibunya.

"Habis sekarang kenapa tidak belajar?" Tanya sang lelaki lagi dengan penuh semangat. "Sedang belajarlah ni tetapi selain sibuk
dengan kerjaya saya juga sibuk belajar agama, jadi belajar memasak tetap tidak diutamakan!"
Begitu jawab si gadis yang membuatkan lelaki tadi menggeleng-geleng kepala. Baginya tidak sempurna seorang wanita
jika tidak tahu memasak.

Wanita sepatutnya buat begitu juga. Syarat utama menjadi suami mesti boleh menjadi imam. Walau ada yang kata, jika itu
syaratnya bermakna makin ramai wanita yang hidup bujang seumur hidup.

Lelaki meletakkan kebolehan wanita di dapur sebagai perkara utama dan ungkapan hendak memikat suami, perlu pikat
seleranya sering diguna pakai. Tidak kiralah jika wanita itu berpelajaran atau berjawatan tinggi dan penyumbang utama kewangan dalam
rumahtangganya. Sekarang bukan asing lagi gaji isteri lebih tinggi daripada suami. Namun kedudukan suami sebagai
raja tidak pernah dilupa walau dia tidak mengambil inisiatif mempelajari ilmu menjadi imam. Ilmu bermain video game di
komputer mereka rasa lebih perlu.

Kalau tidak tahu memasak disuruh belajar dan sesudah belajar perlu handal.

Jika handal bukan setakat masak untuk keluarga sendiri, kalau boleh perlu boleh memasak untuk tiga pasukan bola. Begitulah
standard yang telah ditetapkan. Bolehkah kita meletakkan undang- undang itu kepada lelaki juga.

Kalau tidak pandai jadi imam, belajarlah. Mula- mula jadi imam kepada keluarga sendiri, sudah terror boleh mengimam satu taman perumahan juga.

"Sibuk suruh kita handal memasak, mereka tu bolehkah jadi imam?" Dengus teman wanita yang lain.Betul juga. Berapa kerat
lelaki yang menjadikan sembahyang jemaah di rumah bersama anak isteri sebagai agenda utama, selain keperluan memenuhi pelbagai seleranya? Maka bertanyalah wanitakini kepada beberapa lelaki tentang kebolehan yang satu ini.

Ternyata ramai yang menjawap tidak confident menjadi imam sebab takut bacaan al-Fatihah tidak sempurna, salah tajwid
atau pun dia merasakan isterinya lebih handal. Ada yang kata lebih elok dia dan isteri sembahyang sendiri-sendiri. Ada juga menjawab, rasa kelakar pula apabila dirinya yang rugged menjadi imam.

Isu ini sepatutnya kita beratkan sepertimana masyarakat memberatkan wanita perlu pandai memasak jika mahu bersuami. Lelaki
juga harus boleh menjadi imam supaya kewibawaan mereka sebagai ketua keluarga tidak goyah atau menjadi mangsa queen control. Kalau tidak pandai, belajarlah sekarang. Jika wanita disuruh belajar, apa salahnya lelaki!

Amacam???

kedai mamak banyak..bkn u guyz suka lepak mapley ker?? so why bother finding (a) "know how to cook" wife/wives?? i like this part Lelaki juga harus boleh menjadi imam supaya kewibawaan mereka sebagai ketua keluarga tidak goyah atau menjadi mangsa queen control n as an addition to that, (xdek laaa aku sexist plak kan..) aku agak sakit mata bila aku tgk lelaki yg kena marah or kena tegur dgn gf or bini dihdpn org ramai..
(to the guy: plzzz laa notice yg ko kena marah/tegur dpn org ramai, dan rasa lah ego ko tercabar..nasihatkanlah gurl ko spy it wont happen next time)
(to the gurl: sedar2lah bhw ko sdg memalukan ur guy yg ko syg..tunggu laaa blk rumah br tegur kay!!)
aku tulis apa yg aku fikir pd aku btul..am no perfect person pon :-(

pompuan lawa vs. pompuan tak lawa

2005-12-11T16:17:00.000+01:00

came across this email when i was struggling to read the 89 unread mail in my mailinbox (mail..mail..mail)...seems that i never can finish reading them :-(

it might be interesting to share it here...heheheh....xyah comment, korg baca sendiri laa..happy reading lah yerrr!!

Kalau perempuan lawa pendiam
Lelaki akan cakap: woow, ciri-ciri isteri
idaman...
kalau perempuan tak lawa pendiam
Lelaki akan cakap: eh tak reti komunikasi betul...

kalau perempuan lawa berbuat jahat
Lelaki akan kata: musti ada krisis dalaman nih.kesian
kalau perempuan tak lawa berbuat jahat
Lelaki akan cakap: dah la tak lawa, perangai pulak
huduh...

kalau perempuan lawa menolong Lelaki yg diganggu
Lelaki akan cakap: heroin sejati...!
kalau perempuan tak lawa menolong Lelaki yang diganggu
Lelaki akan kata: taktik nak ngorat le tu...

kalau perempuan lawa dapat Lelaki hensem
Lelaki akan kata: ok gak la....
kalau perempuan tak lawa dapat Lelaki hensem
Lelaki akan kata: kesian..mesti kena bomoh lelaki tuh!

kalau perempuan lawa ditinggal kekasih
Lelaki akan kata: buta kayu betul mamat tu....
kalau perempuan tak lawa ditinggal kekasih
Lelaki akan kata:...patut pun kena reject...

kalau perempuan lawa penyayang binatang
Lelaki akan cakap: perasaannya halus...penuh kasih
sayang
kalau perempuan tak lawa penyayang binatang
Lelaki akan cakap: sesama keluarga memang harus
menyayangi...

kalau perempuan lawa bawa BMW
Lelaki akan cakap: ntah dato' mana bela nih....
kalau perempuan tak lawa bawa BMW
Lelaki akan cakap: musti anak org kaya nih.....

kalau perempuan lawa tak mau
bergambar
Lelaki akan cakap: pasti takut kalau2 gambarnya
tersebar
kalau perempuan tak lawa tak mau bergambar
Lelaki akan kata: sedar pun diri...

kalau perempuan lawa menuang air ke gelas lelaki
Lelaki akan cakap: caring sungguh....
kalau perempuan tak lawa menuang air ke gelas lelaki
Lelaki akan cakap: nak tunjuk caring le tu....

kalau perempuan lawa bersedih hati
Lelaki akan cakap: dont worry i will make u happy
forever
kalau perempuan tak lawa bersedih hati
Lelaki akan kata: sikit2 nak nangis!! mengada2...

kalau perempuan lawa masak
Lelaki akan kata: dah la lawa, pandai masak pulak
tu...
kalau perempuan tak lawa masak
Lelaki akan cakap: ntah sedap ke tak????

kalau perempuan lawa main2 miss call
Lelaki akan kata: takpe...
kalau perempuan tak lawa main2 miss call
Lelaki akan cakap: ko ni takde keja lain ke... sibuk
ni tau..

kalau perempuan lawa hantar2 email
Lelaki akan kata: sukenya....
kalau perempuan tak lawa hantar2 email
Lelaki akan cakap: balik2 email dia...boring

to the readers bernama lelaki..is this true??...kalu btul nk kena tarik telinga korg ni!!

tiada ertinya -Nur Fatima-

2005-12-10T14:55:00.000+01:00

tiada ertinya
lara tiada akhirnya
pabila menatap resah
sepi hinga waktu berkubur

sayu makin membuku di dada
terhiris kalbu
adakah inikan terus berlalu

apa nilainya jika sangsimu mengganggu
untuk kembali ke pangkuan
dan bermesra denganku

tiada ertinya di sini
tiada ertinya berkasih
semua telah kau bawa dan berlalu tinggalkanku

tiada ertinya menanti
tiada ertiya buatku padamu
diri yang merindui

apa yang ku mahukan
bagimu tiada ruang
yang berdiri dan memeluk dirimu

apa nilainya jika sangsimu mengganggu
untuk kembali ke pangkuan
dan bermesra denganku

taken from gol & gincu..believe it or not..I've watched the film like 5 times already..(bkn aku sorg jek!!!...farr did too!!)..bkn suka the cerita sgt pon..farr n me tend to ajuk the getikz words used there..heheheh...shuuuwwwwweeeerrrrrr

fulfilling the free friday

2005-12-09T15:44:00.000+01:00

H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y W A W A
i've changed some font style in my blog..adding some colour to it..dah siap editing the template tu rasa my blog looks gurlish plak..hehehe...hands raise, sape setuju ngan aku (well i cant see them pon :-D)

good for me (ye kerr??) hari jumaat aku free..tarak kelas..up till now tak blaja..(exams coming in less than 2 months..*sigh*)..yup, like intan said, "sha skema"..(after i decided not to go to uk wif her)..nak wat cane intan..member ko ni kan suka dok kat meja study dia yang bersepah-sepah sambil menatap buku latihan mechanic!!..talked to intan last nite..quote dari intan semalam (of course telah diolah semula untuk kesesuaian pembaca..heheh).."isnin, selasa, rabu, khamis, jumaat, weekend..ulang 17 kali..eh eh...dah 3 tahun dah dok sini!!!"...time passes really quick..dah 3 tahun rupenyerr!!

AGM will be held on 27th at nürnberg..as promised, i'll go..but this year, "saya menjadi pembantu am sahaja" (yea yea..)..tapi yang tak bestnyerr..cam most of ALG4 tak datang jek..

dah lama tak jenguk website MGSS pon..tatau sangat pon perkembangan MGSS..yuran MGSS pon tak bayo lagi kat zuhri..hehehheh..

kinda tatau nak menulis apa lagi dah..so its better to stop now kan ;-)

to miss zalila

2005-12-08T17:36:00.000+01:00

H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y Z A L I L A
I got this beautiful words from a friend..

Sweet words are easy to say, Sweet things are easy to buy, but sweet people are difficult to find.

Life ends when U stop dreaming, hope ends when U stop believing, love ends when U stop caring, friendship ends when U stop sharing.

To love without condition, to talk without intention, to give without reason, and to care without expectation, is the heart of a true friend.........

p/s: well, i guess not all of the people in this world have this true friendship..tak ker??people tend to use other people to get to something..then the "to love without condition, to talk without intention, to give without reason, and to care without expectation" is already violated..betul tak??...huahuahua..

buang masa

2005-12-06T10:36:00.000+01:00

free time in second periode..i should've studied in rz..instead this wut i do..*sigh*

i came across this one blog..it's afdlin shauki's blog..pheeewitttt..love him vewwwyyyy much..though people might say he's always wif his lawak bodo n tak klakar langsung..but 4 me, afdlin is awesome..(as well as apek)..he always comes wif such a great lawak!!...

tp...kat sini bkn nk highlightkan citer psl afdlin..after dh lingered around kt blog afdlin, aku terpk plak utk cari blog2 artis yg lain..or ape2 site berkaitan dgn artis lain (myspace, frenster n stuff)..ni yg aku jumpa afdlin shauki's myspace , afdlin shauki's blog , umie aida`s myspace , apek's myspace , erma fatima's myspace , yasmin ahmad's blog, official site siti nur haliza, official site anuar zain(he reminds me of abg megat!!..hahahha), senario's official

search merata-rata..tak banyak plak artist yang ada blog sendiri (obviously aku jumpa afdlin punya aje) n yang ada myspace account..suka jugak baca apa yg afdlin tulis..umie aida punya friends pon sampai 11thousend++ (supposingly itu personal site kan..really kagum jugaklaa if they manage to menjaga site dorg walaupon ada hidup yg hectic..)

so...yasmin ahmad is going to make another film i guess..GUBRA..i wonder how its going to be like..I've watched RABUN (her film also)..tapi quite tak paham apa yang cuba disampaikan dalam cerita tu..(so plzzz anyone yg paham...plzz explain)..perhaps i'm jez not an art kinda person..so tak paham apa maksudnya art in that film..in a way, i guess yasmin ahmad has this trademark, which whenever people see a film of her production, will definitely know that it is her film (got it??..sound belit2 to me..hehehe), and i find it good..

conclusion : belilah cd yang original!!

p/s: astaghfirullah..ape laaa yg aku wat membuang masa nih!!

bezday present...

2005-12-04T16:38:00.001+01:00

thnx to sume org yg wish me besday :-D

special thnx to jan, farr, auni, kia, intan n astar..luv u guyz!!!

uploaded raya pictures..

2005-12-03T14:57:00.000+01:00

raya dah habis br nk upload gambar..yeahh i know, siput babi lg laju wat keje..been busy lately..tatau aaa bz ape pon sebenanyerr...byk masa lepak kt FH kt rechenzentrum..though x sepenuhnyerr of the time blaja *sigh*..

the r 2 uploaded albums..eine is "raya in saarbrücken"..thanx to farr, aida, dill, zet and cinz 4 the pics..the andere adalah raya di ulm..thnx to those yg dtg memeriahkan raya kecil-kecilan kitorg..

may click the pic below to see thise pics :-D

happy bezday to me!!

2005-11-29T08:33:00.000+01:00

yoshh!! 23 already!! rasa cm baru jek semalam habiskan tingkatan 5..cepatnya masa berlalu..dah makin tua dah..(kena kurangkan crazy n crappy stuff yg selalu dibuat dlm hidup...love being a kid *sigh*)..hopefully tahun yang mendatang is better than tahun sebelumnya!

first entry after a long while

2005-11-10T22:55:00.000+01:00

Dah cukup setahun rupanya blog ni. Setelah mengabandonekan blog ni selama sebulan, akhirnya aku kembali membuat onar ke atas blog sendiri. Among the reason aku tidak memperdulikan blog aku ialah emosi tak berapa stabil (kalu tulis blog nanti tapape yang aku tulis) and ingatkan nak try buat blog sendiri guna php n mysql (malangnya mcm tak bermasa).

Its not too late to wish everybody Selamat Hari Raya kan??...

Tahun ni aku raya kat Saarbrücken. Credit to encik-encik, cik-cik dan puan di Saar. Korang masak memang beshhh. Nak datang raya tetiap tahun kat saar bleh??..gambar raya tak abis kumpul lagi(kena minta org lain sbb that day dlm camera aku ada 3 ketul gambo jek..nak suro org amik kan gamba mcm malas sebab camera2 yang telah sedia ada pon amatlah banyaknya)..bila dh abih kumpul nanti akan ku upload dengan segera.

Well tahun ni raya..taklaaa seteruk tahun lepas..in fact dis is the best raya semenjak aku ada kat germany.(thn lps 1st hari raya dihabiskan dengan tidur). Tahun ni 1st raya after kelas jek, aku dah dalam perjalanan ke saar. Sesampai dah dapat makan lemang segera dill..hehehhe..n of course few other things....

enough for the first entry..next time tatau nak cite apa plak lagi..

quote for today: there's more to life..you just have to know how to enjoy it :D

a touch from anggun

2005-10-01T10:15:00.000+02:00

Still reminds me

I cut off my hair
Put some red on every nail on my feet
I think it's pretty
I repainted all the rooms
Got a cat that I named June, obviously..
I think she's happy...
Friends threw some parties
I've been to them all there's not one that I missed...

And I've tried to spend my time with somebody new
But everyone still reminds me of you
i tried to play some songs that'd changed my point of view
But every sound still reminds me of you
I've done some walking
Listen to the people talk on the street...
I don't feel lonely..
I saw some movies
But your face kept coming back on the screen
I think I'm crazy
Can't make decisions
I could use some more distractions today

I wonder where did I go wrong?...
What made you gone...
How I hate to feel alone.....
(somebody new...
....reminds me of you...)

I've tried to spend my time with somebody new
But everyone still reminds me of you
Tried to play some songs that'd changed my point of view
But every sound still reminds me of you
i try to look for something that to hold on to
cause im lost
im numb without you
i tried to find some ways to free me from this blue
cause everything still reminds me of you
still remind me.......ohh....
(remind me of you...)
still remind me of you..

a touch from melly goeslow

2005-09-30T13:01:00.000+02:00

Tiada Maaf Bagimu

Seperti dalam cerita saja
Ada yang baik dan ada yang jahat
Tetapi ternyata kita sama
Tak berhati

Kau menipuku sesuka hati
Hatiku perih jantungku terkoyak
Tak pernah aku menyangka
Kau sekejam ini

Kau dan aku tak berbeda
Engkau manusia aku manusia
Sama punya hati
Punya persaan bisa terluka

Mungkin saja aku mendendam
Biarpun ku manis tapi aku benci
Dulu kita baik tapi kini lain
Tiada maafku (tiada maaf bagimu)

Jalan kita memang harus begini
Tak usah menyesal kau kan yang mau
Kau yang membuat kesalahannya
Tiada maaf bagimu

bandar seri begawan

2005-09-28T03:51:00.000+02:00

i went to brunei on the 3rd sept..brunei sememangnya takde ape..hehehe i mean x sebest mesia aaa..but i lurveeee the beach!!! unfortunately aku x amik gambo pape masa kat beach tu sbb camera xdek time..here r some pics though ;-)

thanx a bunch to aciks family especially cik mah, abg e, n iman coz bwk me n mama jejln.

Love & Marriage

2005-09-20T06:49:00.000+02:00

A student ask a teacher, "what is love?"
The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the padi field and hoose the biggest padi and come back. But the rule is: you can go throught them only once and cannot turn back to pick."
The student went to the field, go thru first row, he saw one big padi,but he wonders....may be there is a bigger one later. Then he saw another bigger one... but may be there is a even bigger one waiting for him. Later, when he finished more than half of the padi field, he start to realise that the padi is not as big as the previous one he saw, he know he has missed the biggest one, and he regreted. So, he ended up went back to the teacher with empty hand.
The teacher told him, "...this is love... you keep looking for a better one, but when later you realise, you have already miss the person...."

"What is marriage then?" the student asked.
The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back. But the rule is: you can go throught them only once and cannot turn back to pick."
The student went to the corn field, this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he reach the middle of the field, he has picked one medium corn that he feel satisfy, and come back to the teacher.
The teacher told him, "this time you bring back a corn.... you look for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one you get.... this is marriage."

apdet panjang sket neh

2005-08-14T09:58:00.000+02:00

setelah sekian lama aku x menjenguk blog aku..dh kate blk mesia..online pon 73 thn skali..bile dh online rase malas plak nk apdet blog..sbb rase amat tensen ngan laptop neh..tp sekarnag dh kurang sket tensennyerr..sbb dh tambah RAM..thanx 2 kamu yg membelikan RAM n membersihkan laptop huduh ku ini!!!

ape kabo laaaa agaknya has kat sane tuh...sonok kerrr gi budapest ari tuh yaaahh kamu??sori i broke my promise 4 the 3rd time... :(

blk dh lamo nih..tp cm xdek mende ape yg aku wat kat sini..time passed berkadar langsung dgn duit yg aku belanjakan...wawawawa...insaflaaa kamu sha!!!

meh2..recall blk ape yg aku wat...sampai ari tuh 26.7..sesampai di mesia aje..ptgnyerr aku dh menjdk stalker yg x berjaya..muahahahah..dan seterusnya sepjg minggu itu, bertugas sbg stalker..gi melawat abg megat yg dok menjaga booth teh indonesia philip kat mines wikennyerrr..

next week nyerr plak..oleh krn dh 2 minggu (a week be4 blk mesia n a week after jejak kaki kat mesia) i didnt get enuf rest, jdk aku tidoq setidoq2nyerr..mcm dh kene suntik ubat pelali ker mcm dh minum ubat batuk 13 botol..gi sekolah rendah aku dulu..igt nk jdk cikgu sambilan..kwamg kwang..pehtu sorg cikgu aku soh gi tanya kat ppd..maleh douh nk panjat pejabat..so terpaksala dilupakan shj niat suci itu..hahahhaa

isnin br nih plak blk kmpg..panas siuttt mesia..ngan jerebu nyerr skrang..ikut mak aku gi tgk tanaman dia blakang umah nenek ngan reban ayam yg abah br buat rase cm beh plak..tp x dok lama sbb abah tetiba nk blk cpt..ekceli aku xnk blk lg...buhsan dok umah xdek mende nk wat..tp xkan laa aku nk tgl umah nenek aku kan..kete pon tarak..mati sangap aku nnti..

sedar x sedar dh 3 minggu aku kat mesia..hoooo yeahhhh dh tgk bewitched!!!...tp ke"best"an nyerrr x spt yg aku harapkan..tp ok aaa..ungu violet pon beh gak (huhuhuh...layan indon jgn x layan..seb baik ade subtitle)

hmmmmm..wut else 2 talk abt??..well has..i guess rite now, kamu nggak perlu risau lg..its time to value life n get back the pride i`ve lost be4 n stop being so ridiculous n stupid n selfish..penat aaa...nk gi tido...heheheh

waaaaa...tensen ngan rambut baru...aku salah ckp ngan makcik tuh nk ptg rambut cane..waaaaa waaaaa...

still hvnt decided whether to join omega trend..menarik mmg menarik..at the same time, aku tgh berpk2 dgn ape nk dibuat ngan tanah nenek aku kat kmpg tuh..cm menarik plak kalu leh wat projek ker ape ker on that land..

skrang tgh ade cite dlm hati ada cinta 2 utk slot samarinda..sape yg penah tgk cite nih sure tau yg be4 citer tu start, umie aida, ako mustafa, ellie suriaty akan ckp dis few words abt "dlm hati ada cinta" (which mengambil masa yg amat lama yg mana memendekkan cerita yg ditayangkan)...n for worst...setiap kali bile aku dgr those ayat, air mata aku leh mengalir..ouh soooo sucks!!!!

dh byk plak yg aku bebelkan..masa dh time...next time lak lg...

glückwunsch zu mir :D

2005-07-22T19:54:00.000+02:00

alhamdulillah..aku lepas subject härteantrag :D

tortura

2005-07-22T02:15:00.000+02:00

semenjak dh abih exam nih hari-hari aaa keje aku tido kol 4 bgn kol 11.30pg. Mmg tak sepatutnya diamalkan :( , tp nk wat cane..kate subuh masuk kol 3..stay aaa sampai subuh, sbb dh alang2 nk tido kol 2 kan..(kalu tido plak kang x bgn plak).

activity semlm sehingga skrang...:D

stlh bangun pada pukul 11.30pg, tlg jan masak nasi beriyani

cadangnya lepas mkn nk kemas tongkang pecah nih..instead aku terikut jan n the juniors gi toysrus (aku gi media markt aaa..hehehe)..jdk kensel kemas umah

pehtu tetiba jan leh kasi idea nk main basketball..aku dgn cardigan, jan ngan baju ayu kaler orennye n lina ngan baju renda2nya plus yeen chow yg x perlu dipertikaikan pakainya..gi laa main basketball..siap dgn gigih jan beli bola baru..hehehhehe...lurveee jan!!!..sadisnyerr...muka kene bola, spect senget dan tak mampu dibtulkan lg (plus aku rase muka aku pedih sbb luka kene bola..waaaaaa :-()

blk dh kol 9..sembang kat ym plak..sambil melayan kuch kuch hota hai(seb baik shah rukh khan x ckp german)

kol 2.30pg..dh tatau nk wat ape..jdk merepek di blog

aku rase sgt penat, penat dan penat..

my version6.0

2005-07-21T03:55:00.000+02:00

alhamdulillah..exam ist schon vorbei..tp result xdpt lg..risau² laaa jugek..
setelah 3 hari bertungkus-lumus mengadap comp, endlich aku managed to menyiapkan template baru lg..x perfect aaa kan..kate beginner..br blaja2 nk gune photoshop n html kan..(x smooth sgt the join :-(..if u notice..)..care to comment um zu verbessern??..jez leave msg kay..really looking foward to hearing u guy'z comments ;)

p/s: footer ado prob sket..tp dh malas nk edit..heheehhehe..

to diplom...

2005-07-17T15:57:00.000+02:00

byk lg....

one of jem's

2005-07-15T09:47:00.000+02:00

Missing you

I wish this could be
a happy song
But my happiness disappeared
the moment you were gone
Don't think I ever believed that
this day would come
Now all I'm feeling
is lost and numb

And ohhh I know I promised
Mmmm that I would try

But I, yes I, miss you
and it's killing inside

I'll always be thankful
for the time we had
We were blessed
I should celebrate
but I feel too sad
All the wonderful memories
just make me fall apart
And it feels like somebody's
stabbed me in my heart

And ohhh I know I promised
Mmmm that I wouldn't cry

But I, yes I, miss you
and it's killing inside
Ooh well I, yes I, miss you
want you by my side

Walking, holding hands
Talking, making plans
Touching my heart my soul

I wish this could be
a happy song
But my happiness disappeared
the moment you were gone
Tell me it's not happening
Say it's not as it seems
Tell me that I'm gonna wake up
It's just a bad dream
Please tell me that it's fiction
Tell me it's just a lie
Whatever you choose to tell me
Please say he didn't die

And I, yes I, miss you
and it's killing inside
Ooh well I, yes I, miss you
want you by my side
Ooh well I, miss you
want you by my side
Back here by my side
Here by my side
jem

cool haaa....

2005-07-14T17:19:00.000+02:00

arent able to read it??...try n make chinese eye wif ur fingers..heheheh..cool aite..

marijuana..or cocaine anyone?

2005-07-13T11:11:00.000+02:00

am i a "Kaffee" addict??..coffee seems to tak membawa kesan ape2 lg utk aku..lps minum, aku leh ngantuk..malah bertambah ngantuk dr seblum aku minum kopi..

last nite, masa aku tgh stadi mathe4..inilah yg terjdk...huhuhuhuhu

dlm keadaan yg masih berasap..seb baik aku sempat amik gambo..

wut happened??..aku stadi bersama lilin..lilin tuh bau best..tetiba aku tersecara x sengaja tlh mencampak kertas mathe alte klausur aku kat lilin tuh..dan itulah yg berlaku..meja still bersepah lg..pas exam sok br nk vacuum rumah..again..i made an attempt to burn own Wohnung..kuikuikui..demit my alte klausur rosak!!!!

sky kingdom...

2005-07-11T20:37:00.000+02:00

isu ayah pin dan kerajaan langitnya...dh lama actually citer psl ajaran sesat nih...the last news yg aku terjumpa abt ayah pin is in the year 1999..am not here to talk abt agama..jez nk share mende yg aku jumpe ;)..

ayah pin (webkl)..besaq siut teko die..
pengikut setia oder??
peguam ayah pin power ker??
ISA??..
tak leh dakwa sesuka hati
skrang dh pandai wat risalah..kamonnnn...tangkap die!!!..eh emosi plak
ko ingat george bush tu manusia paling pandai dlm dunia ker, yg ko nk kate ko lg pandai dr dia??..huahuahua
sky kingdom..huhuhuh
goshhh..
more to go..aku dh maleh nk komen
pengakuan

bin gleich da..

2005-07-10T18:38:00.000+02:00

ich habe keine Lust mehr!!!!...
tensen tensen..skrang nih aku tgh melepak kat umah martin...since kol 12 td...kepala hotak dh berasap2 dh nih...dh x larat nk menginputkan lg mende2..act, ade lg mende yg blom dihafal..tomorrow dh nk exam..nk tanak kene hafalkan gak..tp dh x mampu nk menginput dh...cane nih???..
currently am using carlo's lappy...tgk site sendri gune safari...huhuhuh...discovered my font x disupport dek safari nih..asal leh bukak xpe..hehehhe...
waaaaaaaaa....buhsan dh nih buhsan!!!!!....

cik kia..

2005-07-09T01:18:00.000+02:00

Happy bezday cik kia..luv ya dear fwennn...

2005-07-07T10:44:00.000+02:00

Gadis Melayu

Siapa bilang gadis melayu tak menawan
Tak menarik hati, tiada memikat
Kalaulah memang tak mungkin aku tertarik
Kalaulah sungguh tak mungkin aku kan jatuh

Aduhai... lemah lembut gayanya
Serta manis senyumnya
Hitam pekat rambutnya
Ayuh ambil si dia

Di antara gadis gadis seluruh dunia
Tiada yang sehalus mulus oh setulus dia
Di antara gadis gadis seluruh dunia
Tiada yang sehalus mulus oh setulus dia
Budi bahasanya, pandangan matanya
Sentuhan jiwanya membuatku terlena

br pas dgr lagu nih 3 saat yg lalu..terus teringat kat status y!m pang n blog farr..huhuhuu..i'm totally in shitty condition rite now..exams coming..pray 4 me eh guyz!!

moon..munah...

2005-06-28T00:17:00.000+02:00

i read this one thread mende ntah yg dorg discusskan dlm tuh ntah last nite...one of the sentences that caught my eyes is "i'll go to the moon for u"...agagagga..do u think u r an astronaut beb??...

life sucks lately...exam's coming...'batu jemala'ache pon x berenti :-(..ubat migrain pon cm x berkesan..ker aku mkn yg dh expired punyerr pon aku tatau..hopefully not..

jumpe stadi port br kat school..bwh rechenzentrum dpn toilet...ahahahah..teruk kan..sbb kat situ sejuk..bau enjin pon mengatasi bau toilet..so x kesah aaa...dr lepak kat umah x leh stadi kan..next week ade exam MATLAB..tp satu haram x blajo lg..seb baik wahlfach..tp kalu nk blajo kene gune comp..kalu kene gune comp kene dok umah..kalu dok umah sure2 takleh blajo...kwang kwang...

arrrrrrrgggghhhhhhh!!!! study sha study sha!!!!

Cinta Tak Berganti

2005-06-25T22:23:00.000+02:00

Biarkanlah resah sayang
Sukar ku lalui
buat ku berduka

kenangkanlah oh semalam
walau cinta dikunci
janji tak ku lupa

tak daya ku halangi
tak ku cuba jauhi
tetap disini
terus menanti

ikrar kita mengharungi badai sakti
mencari sinar kasih suci
walaupun nafasku ini pasti terhenti
jangan pula ada sangsi lubuk hati
percaya cinta tiada ganti
kau yang ku cari
kaulah kasih keakhir hayat nanti......

since when aku dengar lagu siti pon aku tatau..tp dis one i kinda like it..no exactly like it 'like it'..kinda membuatkan aku termenung selama 38 menet kot...hehheheheh..